Channeling Erik Through Psychic Medium, Felix Lee Lerma

A friend tipped me off to Felix Lee Lerma, a young psychic medium living in San Francisco who apparently is very well-regarded, conducting readings for a number of celebrities and other famous people. I had to wait four agonizingly long months for my appointment to finally arrive. I’ll break my hour long session into several posts.

You will notice that his style is a bit different from Kim’s, but his accuracy is as amazing. While you read this post, please keep in mind that the only information I gave him when I booked the appointment (other than my credit card and telephone number) was my married name. Why did I book him? First of all, any “face time” I can have with Erik helps soothe the deep wounds in my heart. Second, when searching for hope, second opinions that confirm the first ones are indeed comforting. Listen to the first ten minutes of the transcript, and tell me what you think. I’ll put his words in italics and mine in plain text.

Could you give me your full name including your middle name please.

You mean my birth name?

Yes, your birth name.

Elisa Ribelles. I don’t have a middle name.

And your date of birth please, Elisa

April 21, 1955

Okay. 4/21/1955. Okay, so the reason I ask you for your birthday is I do a little numerology before I start. Numbers help me look at the timing of things.

Okay.

We can look at what things are coming up and what things have happened in the past. So 4/21/2010 is your next birthday. So we add up all the digits in your birth date, which equals 10, and then we add those digits up to make the number one. That gives us your personal year number. The number one is a “new beginning” year. This year is about starting anew, starting new things or getting back into the things you were into before. Okay?

Yeah, okay.

I also have to acknowledge there’s an older lady here I feel like has a similar name to you. Are you named after someone?

Yes.

I’m getting Elisa, Elisabeth.

Yes something like that. (I was named after my great aunt, Elisabeth. She was a very powerful judge in Spain.)

I feel like I’m supposed to acknowledge this lady; she’s a very powerful Catholic presence.

Okay. (In fact, her brother, my great uncle, was Vidal Barraquer, Cardinal of Spain!)

I’m supposed to acknowledge her, because she’s the one who’s going to help us today with the reading.

Okay. (Helps to know people of influence after all, I guess.)

So she’s going to help bring the people through to you. Who’s one of four kids, three surviving?

Well I have three siblings, only two are surviving. (My youngest sister, Denise, died after suffering from diabetes for many years.)

I feel like I have to acknowledge that you’re one of three in some capacity. It also could be that you are one and then there are three others.

Oh, okay.

This Elisabeth is also connecting me to another person in spirit. Now, Elisa, I have to tell you the feeling I have with…I don’t know who this is yet, but we’re going to talk about it. We’re going to bring this person through, because she wants to show me. Somebody left very suddenly.

Mm hmm.

There’s a sense of someone passing very suddenly; you understand that?

Uh huh. Right.

Is this your son?

Yes, probably.

Because she’s making me feel like he’s directly related to you, and there’s this feeling of someone leaving very quickly.

That’s correct.

I’m asking her if she can show me. I do feel like there’s someone who wants to come through here. Um, okay I will. (by the tone in his voice, I can tell he’s promising to do or say something for a spirit.) Do you know why your son would be saying sorry to you? (Ah ha! He was promising to relay Erik’s apology.)

Well, yeah I…

Please don’t tell me any more. Just say “yes” or “no.” The best psychic mediums often ask you to not provide leading information. Short affirmations or denials work best.

Okay.

He’s apologizing to you, which leads me to believe that he’s responsible or he’s somehow taking responsibility for what happened.

Okay.

Do you understand that?

Yes.

He says, “Please tell Mom I’m sorry, but I’m okay. I’m okay, Felix.” Okay I need him to be stronger. (Is Erik’s remorse weakening the signal so that Felix is having difficulty receiving him?) He’s putting something in my mouth. I don’t know what he’s trying to do, but let me ask him here. Was he under any influence, Elisa? Did he take something that would make him feel different?

Well, he was on bipolar medication.

Yes! Thank you. Because he’s saying he took something that affected his mind or that made him feel different than someone who is not on medication. Or he might be telling me that he had a disease which requires medication and that illness affected his mind. He’s talking about taking his own life. Did he cross himself over, Elisa?

Yes.

Because he’s saying he’s taking responsibility for his passing. Do you understand me?

Uh huh. Yes.

(Pause) Just asking him for more information. Do you know that he’s thought about this for a long time?

Yeah,

He was very unhappy.

Right, right. (Statements like this, although not new revelations, feel like burning hot daggers piercing my heart every time. One of the most difficult aspects of this tragedy is knowing the intensity of suffering my son endured so bravely and often so alone. How he could still be so kind and giving to others when he had so little to give himself? This is still a great and tragic mystery to me.)

He also wants you to know that you are not the reason, like you did not do anything wrong. He wants you to stop trying to, almost like you’re trying to blame yourself. He’s saying, “Mom, this has nothing to do with you.” Do you understand me?

Yes, I do.

Does he have a brother?

Yes.

Because he’s acknowledging his brother. He wants me to say “hello” to his brother. It’s really significant.

Okay.

Your son is in spirit. He’s home. He’s okay. I feel like he’s with an older gentleman who has also passed. Would this be his dad?

No.

It feels like father or grandfather, an older male figure there that has a father energy and is taking care of him. Who’s the J-O name, please, Elisa? Jose´.

My father’s name is Jose´. (valuing his time and mine, I failed to disclose his full name: Jose´Antonio Augustin´Ramon´Ribelles-Barraquer. Whew!)

Okay, this older gentleman would be Jose´’s father, which would be your grandfather coming through. He’s acknowledging his son which, would be your father. I feel like even though your son did not know his great grandfather, I have to acknowledge that your son is with him. Your son is playing loud music for me. (Interesting, there’s no way Felix could know that my grandfather died long before Erik was born or his penchant for music.)

Okay, that sounds like him! (I laugh as I say this, remembering how Erik loved to crank up his music, whether through his guitar amp, his iPod, or the kick-ass system in his truck.)

Loud music.

Mm hmm.

He just keeps telling me, “Tell Mom I’m sorry. I love her very much, I’m sorry.”

Aw, yeah, I know. (I have a lump is my throat as I choke back my tears. This apology comes up with every session, regardless of the medium. Erik was always very good about apologizing those he hurt. It saddens me that even in the afterlife, he is cruelly bound by the oppressive chains of guilt.)

It’s really important that you know that he didn’t understand, like he wasn’t in the right mind; you know what I mean?

Right, exactly.

He wasn’t in the right state of mind, so it’s not like, I can’t say it’s his fault. I really feel like there was something different about him. It’s like, you know, it’s a disorder.

Oh yes, absolutely! It’s like a terminal disease, in many cases. No, I understand.

He’s says, “I had too much angst in my head. I had to go. I had to go.” Did he cut off his circulation and breathing?

Well, eventually I guess it did. (After all, this is the end result of any death.)

He’s showing me that something affected like the oxygen to his head. It happened very quickly.

Yes it did.

It’s a head trauma thing. He’s showing me his neck all the way to his head. It doesn’t feel very pretty to me.

Okay, yes that’s correct. (The horrible images of that moment I found his lifeless body taunt me like a spiteful fiend. I take a moment to shake them away.)

It’s just like a mess he made.

Yes, uh huh. (Please don’t make me relive that day, that horror.)

I feel like that’s what he’s apologizing for. It’s like “I stuck a gun to my head.” Did he take a gun to his head, Elisa?

Yes, yes.

Because that’s what he’s showing me.

Okay.

I need to end on this note to catch my breath and wipe away my tears. Will I ever get over that day? Will I ever get over losing him? Will I ever recover from the knowledge that my poor little boy suffered so profoundly and for so long? Will I ever find contentment, despite the fact that sorrow and regret still continue to be his cruel and relentless companions in the afterlife? The short answer is “no.” A mother’s heart can never mend when her child’s heart still bleeds. I long to wrap my arms around him like I used to when he was younger, then “kiss and blow” the boo-boo for him. Unfortunately, no amount of kissing and blowing will fix his heart or mine.

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  • Hello Elisa,

    I am so sorry that this meeting brought up the painful memories of that day. But I do understand the need to be able to talk with Erik. Although I have to say I like how Kim does it. She speaks more word for word what Erik has to say. Felix, at least at the moment seems to stick more to facts and not so much as saying what Erik wishes to say word for word. With Kim, it seemed more like you and Erik could talk and Kim was more or less the phone where you two could talk back and fourth. Either way, any amount of time you get to spend with Erik, being able to know how he is doing, is a very good thing to have. I really hope being able to talk to him, even if it is through a medium, that it is helping making his passing easier, even just a little bit. Take care Elisa.

    -Stanley

  • Tom

    Hi again,
    This is interesting, and nice you get the same information through different sources. But I think Erik Likes Kim more because he’s more ‘chatty’ with her. I think his connection with is strained because Erik is more of a “ladies man” and might be a bit….intimidated by Felix, thats just a guess.
    One thing you mentioned was knowing that Erik is still bothered by guilt and pain for some of what he did, but I though he had worked through a lot of that in the earlier sessions with Kim…*shrug*
    I just wanted to let you know it works both ways. After many years, I finally decided to try and connect again with my mom. She passed away 42 years ago, when I was 8. I didn’t think about it much, but something inside was telling me to at least try. There was a radio program on one of the stations here called “Angels in Waiting” (or something like that) and you could call in and get a reading and it would play on the air if you wished. I was intrigued and somewhat amazed at the information given which listeners would validate. It took a while, but I decided to call and give it a shot. After arranging an appointment for a 10 minute session, I waited for I think a month, then I called back in and got things rolling. Even though it was a phone call I was a nervous wreck, I though I was ready to handle what ever connection I got, but I was wrong. They worked through much like Felix did, establishing connections, and then they found her, and I started to fall apart. I hadn’t heard from her in decades. The showed the medium a rose, which was her middle mane, and I said so…..and after a could of other comments, all they could get was just a H*U*G*E apology and regret…..my heart broke. I could barely talk, this poor woman was still suffering over something that, as far as I was concerned, wasn’t her fault! I couldn’t stop crying, I felt so bad for her, and wanted to hold her and tell her it’s ok, it wasn’t her, or her fault, and I loved her.
    Anyways, I hope this helps in someway, I know it pales in comparison to loosing a child, but the reverse also seems true, in that older people too can be left with regret and pain of thing they had done or left behind for the rest to deal with.
    It saddened me greatly to hear my mom was still plagued by sadness and remorse. She had a rough childhood, he father whom she adored passed away when she was about 5, and she was in an unhappy marriage for 17 years before she died. I was hoping that being with her dad again would help things somewhat, but I guess somethings just don’t heal well, no matter where you are.
    Maybe Erik will work through his issues and finally let them go, which would be great for you both. I know it hurts, but in different ways.

    Hope you have an awesome weekend! =D

    Talk to ya later

    Tom

    • Yeah most of the information matches, if not all. He still feels remorse and, through Kim, he says he working to forgive himself still. I guess it must be hard even in the afterlife. I’m so glad you got in touch with your mom. That took an incredible amount of courage. I can tell there’s a lot of pent up love on both ends. I hope you continue to keep in touch with her.

      Also, I think you’re right. Erik was a charmer with the ladies. He loved all girls: babies, children, women. He often locked horns with male authority figures, but loved the nurturing, affection and feminine qualities women possess.

      I hope you have a great weekend too! Maybe during a quiet moment you can try channeling your mom. Let me know if you connect with her again.

      Til next time, Sweetie.

  • Tom

    Thank you for this thought. I was both glad and saddened to connect with after so long. It leaves me sad knowing the she is suffering for something she didn’t do.
    Stanley mentioned that I might be a medium, or that I have those qualities. I do know that anyone can do it, or so I hear, but a couple of points for me are:
    1) do I REALLY want to open that door? because ones that happens it cannot be closed, and I’d be stuck with something I have no idea what do do with.
    2) Like you, I don’t have a clue where to go or how to begin with such learning or where to gain reliable experience. As far as I know there aren’t any schools around that teach this sort of thing, and if there are, they are more then likely shady places unto themselves in an offbeat place, hidden. I guess I could start with Kim’s books, and see where that goes. This isn’t like “main stream” stuff found just anywhere.
    maybe I just have to get out of my own way…..*shrug*

    Thanks again =D

    • If you have the gift, it shouldn’t be denied. I’ve talked to mediums that say they can shut if off any time and they do so in various ways, reciting a protection prayer, visualizing a protective cloak covering them, etc. Also, try going online to look at various books on how to channel. I’d try to learn now but my grief is too fresh, my mind and heart too heavy.

  • Tracy Lamont

    Dearest Elisa,
    If you got an un-finished response before this one, please disregard it. Still having trouble with my laptop.
    This is fascinating reading and I can’t wait to continue, but I just wanted to give you a cyber hug.
    Even though you’re getting information that Erik is fine, it is still so difficult for you to get past THAT day in your head. I know how that feels, Elisa, but try and look at things another way.
    Erik’s life with you, on a measure stick, is marked at 20 years, then there’s a small, hardly noticable blip, then the measure continues to infinity.
    Next time you look at that stick, going on to infinity try not to look at the blip. It’s not important to Erik. It was just a way to get to heaven ‘cos he had so much important work to do that couldn’t be done here.
    Sending you much love,
    Tracy xx

    • Yes, gotta get past that damn blip. It’s hard, and today is the anniversary of his burial. I’m gonna go change the flowers for him. {{{hugs}}} back to you, sweet Tracy. I’m so so lucky to know you.

  • Dangerousmartini

    I just had a reading with Felix and it was OUTSTANDING! I would call him the Psychic for psychics. Seriously great!

  • I agree and he’s a delightful man!

  • annabella.62

    Oh, I am so sorry for you and your son. So very sorry. Please be sure to tell him you understand and forgive him and love him. He will need to hear it many times. You two will be together again. I send hugs and my love to you.

    • Thanks, Annabelle. It gets better though. Hope you keep reading.

  • Jenny Truth Seeker

    It sound like a lot of cold readings. You might want to look up Felix Lee Lerma Psychic Fraud and find out the truth:)

  • asil

    Oh wow, I just now see that you are also born on my late son’s birthday – well, different year but same date. So many connections…

  • Trevor

    Hey Elisa, can you post the audio recording of your session with Felix? I’d like to see if I can find any EVPs. Also, you may want to upload the audio recordings of your sessions with Kim O’neil and see if other people can find EVPs.

    • I’ll try to find it.

      • Trevor

        Hi Elisa, I was wondering if you found the audio for your session with Felix Lee Lerma?

      • Trevor

        Hi Elisa, I was wondering if you found the audio recording of your session with Felix Lee Lerma?

      • Nope, I think it got deleted a few years ago when my computer crashed and had to be restored.

      • Trevor

        D you still have the CDs from Kim O’neil? Can you upload them on YouTube?

      • That would be more work than I have time for!!!

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