Death and Channeling, Part III

Through the medium, Kim O’Neill, Erik shared volumes of information about death, but I wanted to start by letting him know that, although I would like to channel him on my own, my grief makes it difficult to have the quiet mind necessary to hear him. Here’s his response:

“I’m just going to have to talk louder than your grief! Your grief is causing a lot of static. It’s like if we were at a water park, we’d have to talk louder to hear each other.”

‘Can you do that, Erik?’ I ask.

“Oh, sure.”

‘But how will I know it’s you and not a conversation I just make up in my mind?’

“Because you know me, Mom. You know the way I talk. You know my sense of humor. I’m gonna say, ‘Mom it’s me,’ and you’ll know it’s me. You’re going to be able to feel the difference between your grief, your head talk and me. And I’ll talk louder than your head talk so you’re probably gonna have to tell me to keep it down a notch CUZ I’M GOING TO BE TALKING REALLY LOUDLY! Here’s my plan for now. I’m going to be coming to you in dreams, lucid dreams. So I’m coming to you first. In the morning, you’re going to have total recall about what we talk about, usually. If you don’t, when you go to the computer and start typing. It’ll just come out.”

I ask, ‘How often can you come to me?’

“Any time I damn well please!” he says jokingly.

‘Well then, how often do you think that can be?’ I ask this because I want so desperately to have him with me all the time. It’s funny; when a person is around, you feel okay about seeing them only sporadically. It’s no big deal if they go away on a trip for a week or two and hang out with friends more than home, but when they die, they become the center of your every thought and emotion. You want them to be around you, communicating constantly.

Erik goes on to say, “Well, I’d like to come every night the day before you wanna write something the next day.”

That, of course, means I will be determined to write daily. Communicating in dreams, however, is one thing, but feeling their touch is another. So I ask, ‘How can I better feel your presence?’

Erik assures me by saying, “I’ve been working on building my ability to manipulate physical matter on the earthly plane. Every time we pass away and our soul goes to heaven, we’ve gotta work on our ability to expand our electrical energy so that, if we want to, we can move material objects; we can really make our presence known in the most tangible way possible—to materialize, to touch others, and to have them feel it. That’s what I’ve been working on. So, what I’m going to do is this: I’ll come up and hug you; I’ll touch your arm and you’ll know it’s me; I’ll come up and give you a kiss on the cheek, and I’m going to rub your hair. I’m going to put my hand on top of your head and rub your hair back and forth just like I used to do. Remember how it used to piss you off when I messed up your hair like that?” (He laughs really hard for several seconds. Of course, now, I’d give anything for him to have my hair in a rat’s nest all the time.) “And when you drive you’ll hear me saying ‘Mom, go faster’ or ‘it’s yellow, you can make it; you can make it; go through the light.’”

‘Yeah, I remember what a backseat driver you were, Erik!’ I respond with a chuckle.

He laughs and says, “Yeah, it was easier to be a backseat driver with you than with Pappa, huh? You took it better than he did! And Mom, this is what you’re going to write about in a book: How parents can rise above the grief to actually be able to feel and hear and be aware of their kid around them. You’re also going to be smelling me, Mom. It’ll be the smell like I’ve been working outside, kinda like a sweaty guy smell.” Ah, how well I remember that scent. It wasn’t objectionable to me a all; it was just a sign of how much he loved working outside on cars, bikes, and his welding.

Erik continues with, “Mom, you did everything you could. The problem was I didn’t listen to you. I thought all that stuff was a bunch of bullshit, but now I know! Oh my God, if only, if only, if only. I created something that was much more stressful than it was supposed to be. Even when I had the gun in my hand, it was like should I, shouldn’t I, should I, shouldn’t I? It happened so fast that my guardian angels couldn’t do anything to stop it. They tried to get other people to call or come over, but there wasn’t enough time.”

Just before his death, his older sister, Kristina, experienced something that gives Erik’s statement credence. She says, ”I had been reading about learning disabilities and suicidality in children/teens for my behavioral science course, and I of course was thinking about him the whole time that morning. I got a strong urge to pick up my cell phone and text him ‘I love you’ for no apparent reason at all. But it was in my purse in the other room and I didn’t go get it. I feel remorseful about that.”

On the day of his death, Erik’s younger sister, Annika, and his Aunt Teri recall passing by his room as they walked down the hall to go to the lunch we had planned. In fact, their encounters occurred within ten minutes of his death. They both claimed they saw him sitting at his desk, staring ahead solemnly. Oh, how they wished they had recognized his sadness and stopped to comfort him! In retrospect, these three incidents were most assuredly his guides’ attempts to muster our help and intervention.

Yet Erik reassures us as he continues, “I know you knew it was a possibility this would eventually happen, Mom, but there was nothing you could have done beside worry and do all the stuff you did to help me. Did you know a third of parents around the world have kids who are suicidal? I know that now. You need to let other parents know that too.”

‘Could you tell me more about what it’s like to die, Erik?’  I ask.

“I literally felt no pain. I felt no pain. Mom, it’s really important to put that down because a lot of kids die in accidents like car accidents or motorcycle wrecks. Some have been murdered; some have drowned. Even if a child has died of a heart attack or cancer, the parent is always going to worry about the pain and suffering they might have had during death. But tell everyone there is no pain. My soul popped out of the body at the moment of my death. I truly felt nothing. You know, Mom, I’m going to be totally honest with you about everything. I felt this shocking, this immediate sense of peacefulness, happiness, euphoria. It was stunning. I felt like I was floating, like I was levitating. After my soul popped out of the body, at that moment, I heard a shot. I can’t gauge the time.

“I was feeling this awesome euphoria and enjoying it and it then it was as if this invisible hand was telling me ‘look there, look down.’ So I looked down and I thought, ‘holy shit’ and I realized it was me. For a couple of seconds I wondered, ‘how can I be there and be here too?’ And then I realized, ‘Ooooh, it’s my soul! This is my soul! Then I came into this overwhelming knowing about who I really am, all of my past lives. At that moment I could understand what you were trying to help me heal from in those past lives. I got this immediate knowing and I was like, ‘Oh, oh, that’s what Mom was trying to help me with. Wow, she knew!’ I could see you for who you really are, I could see Pappa for who he really is, and Lukas, Kristina, Michelle and Annika, everybody, everybody—family, friends, everyone on the earthly plane. I could see them for who they really are. This knowing was rapturous. I know that’s a word I wouldn’t use on the earthly plane so I’ll say this so you’ll know it’s really me, ‘It was fucking rapturous!’ I all of a sudden had all this wisdom and I thought, ‘Aaawww, why didn’t I have all this when I was there?’ Then I realized I could have. I could have.

“Mom, that’s where you’re headed. You are going to feel this knowingness, this peace in this lifetime, and then you’re going to teach everybody else in the family. You’re going to feel neutral, objective about the choices other people make. It’s a lot easier being in spirit because you can see someone else’s destiny even when they make choices that change that destiny. Spirits can immediately be neutral and not judge themselves or others.”

“So of course I already told you what happened when I saw all the mess I made. I knew you were going to find me and that was not my goal. I didn’t think. Once I pulled the trigger I couldn’t change my mind. I felt this horrible sense of loss knowing what you guys were gonna feel and I had my own sense of loss, scared, real scared that you guys weren’t going to be able to pick up on me. I was real frightened about it. Then I had this tragic feeling of grief knowing you were gonna find it, Mom. I knew it. I felt this impossible to describe sense of remorse. Maybe it was even more grief than you feel, Mom, because I did it. I did it. I have no one to blame but myself. I knew I would have to have therapy because of it. So you know I went to Norway right away to see Bestefar (his grandfather), but my guide made me come back and watch when you found me. It was the most horrible thing I have ever experienced, seeing you break down in my lap, sobbing. My guide made me look at what pain I caused for you. It was unbearable.” (Here, Kim, again describes him kneeling, hands together as if begging, tears streaming down his face asking for forgiveness.)

“Then I felt this pulling, this pulling like a gravitational pull and I heard this “zinnnggg” and all of a sudden I was standing there in front of a whole bunch of other spirits and I recognized them all! There were hundreds of them. I was like ‘Oh, there’s Aunt Sophie; there’s my brother from the Middle Ages,’ I could recognize everybody from all my past lives and my brother from this lifetime.” (I had lost a baby during my 24th week of pregnancy. It was a boy. We named him, Seth. It happened around 16 years ago, so Kim could not have known Erik had a brother on the other side.)

“There was this big table where everybody was going to sit down…like a family dinner. There was a lot of music, there was a lot of laughing. Oh, and, Mom, I asked four souls from your soul group who aren’t part of your life now if they could help you through all this. I want to do something to help the family. I want to be able to do something for you guys. If there is anything at all I can do to help anyone in the family, please let me know, and I’ll do everything I can. I want to feel like I’m still part of the family. Ask me to do stuff. I can’t exactly take out the garbage but… Spiritual being can move physical objects just as well as you guys.”

‘Okay,’ I joke, ‘I’ll get a chore list together for you!’

Erik laughs, then continues, “Mom, you’re going to notice things have been done, and you’ll ask other people ‘Did you do that?’ ‘Did you do this?’ and they’ll say ‘no’ and you’ll know it was me!” I found that so comforting. Proof of his presence is crucial. I don’t want to feel like I’ve really lost my little boy forever. That would be too much to bear.

“Okay, let’s get back to what happened next,” I prod. Erik was always easily distracted, just like his mom.

“Oh yeah, right, Well, I was at this big long table, and I felt dazed. I was still euphoric, but I was dazed. It’s like one minute I was in my physical body and the next minute I was a free spirit without physical limitations, and I kept asking, ‘I’m really a spirit, right? I mean, I don’t get to go back to that lifetime; I’ve let that lifetime go?’ Then I started “the review.” Nobody did the review but me. I was sitting at the table. Uh, I was sitting there and everyone was talking about how happy they were that I’m back. No matter how we pass, we’re always welcomed back with open arms. Everyone is always thrilled to see us again. Anyway, so I’m sitting at the table, and I’ve got my elbows on the table. I’ve got my head in my hands and I’m reviewing my life. I started sobbing when I remembered being a little boy and you calling me your ‘little man’ and doing things with me and telling me what a big man I’m gonna be. I’ve taken all of that away. Those were the worst moments of the review. I want to thank Pappa for treating me like an adult. Pappa, you treated me like an adult for as long as I can remember. Thanks, Pappa; that meant a lot to me.”

“So I finished my review and I considered what I could have done that I didn’t; what I did do that I shouldn’t have. I don’t know how long the review took. I didn’t mark time. No one here marks time. But it didn’t take long, because the candles were still burning on my cake, my “welcome home” cake. Then I felt this heaviness, this real emotional heaviness. I was approached by this female soul who offered to counsel me; she offered me therapy. So I’ve been going to therapy. She’s not only helping me understand why I did it, why I took my life, but how I can go back to the earthly plane with this heaviness added to the healing I was supposed to do this lifetime without doing the same thing again. Wow, Mom, if I could have seen what I was healing from (in past lives,) no wonder I was so fucking depressed and angry. No wonder, Mom!”

“I want you to let other people know that we have lots of company here. A lot of parents who have lost kids worry that their kid is all alone, but it’s not that way. We imagine what we want to eat, and it’s right there. We live where we want; we live how we want; we don’t feel hot or cold. Thought creates reality much faster here. It happens in an instant.”

I only booked an hour with Kim, so, sadly, it was time to wrap things up. I ask him, ‘Okay, I’m running out of time, but do you have anything else you want to say about what it’s like to die?’

“Shit yeah, tons but don’t worry, I’ve written it all down. We can cover it later.”

Erik writing things down? Could it be? That might just be the biggest transformation of all! I can hear him laughing in agreement.

My "Little Man" Just Left of Annika and Lukas

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  • This was so touching–I’m in tears, but I’m not sure if they are tears of sadness for the tragedy you endured, or tears of joy that your son is not lost to you. I hope to read all of your other posts; your story has affected me greatly, and I thank you for sharing it.

    • Thank you so much for your kind words. They warmed my heart and let me tell you that’s something I sorely need. I will hold those words close to my heart forever.

  • I worked with Laura & Jim in Little Rock and I’m truely speachless. I have a friend in Ohio that lost her daughter (car accident) 2 yrs ago. I’m going to pass this web site along to her. She is so desperate I know it will help her

    • You’re sweet! I hope it helps, because it’s a tough road. She can call me it she likes. Laura has my number.

  • Sharing Erik’s experiences around his death has helped me so much. It is answering the questions I asked you earlier. When my dad (on the other side) said he is “finishing”, I believe Barney is in therapy over there. I wouldn’t worry too much about getting to everyones questions, because your posting this is answering many peoples questions.

  • Catherine Chan

    Dear Elisa,

    Thank you for sharing your experience with Erik with us. It brought me comfort knowing that our child exist in the other dimension. Even though, my 8 yrs. old son, Chanlan died 19 months ago but my days are still very shaken by what had happened so suddenly. Thanks for confirming my faith through your experience. I will definitely read the rest of your post especially when some of my days are still unbearable.
    Thank you for taking the time to put this together.

    • Thanks YOU, Catherine, for joining our family and the journey we’re all taking. I will make sure Erik contacts Chanlan to take him under his wing and teach him how to communicate with you. Can you tell me the city where Chanlan died?

  • Sheryl

    Elisa, thank you so much for sharing this experience with everyone. I lost the love of my life and my soul mate one month ago today. He died very suddenly of a massive heart attack. I am so lost without him, and don’t know how to walk the path ahead of me without him beside me in this world. I am so proud of you for your strength in your situation and for helping others through sharing it. I have begged my loved one for a sign and not sure if I have gotten one. Lots of butterflies, dragonflies, lost things found, and one very brief dream. But nothing concrete enough for me to really hold on to. I have read dozens of books in the last month about spirituality, quantum mechanics, physics etc. I do believe in a spirit world now. I just want to know he is still with me. Can you please ask Erik if he can find my Bob and help him to communicate with me? Stay strong Elisa, you are an amazing person, teacher, and healer, just like Erik knew you were.

    • Can you email me, Sheryl? I’ll do whatever I can to help.

  • Kimberly

    Amazing to read all of this, Elisa. I feel so much for you on all levels. I’m in tears of sadness and joy. Thank you Elisa, Erik and Kim for bringing awareness to all!

    • Thanks to you too, Kim. How did the gigs go for you and Freddie?

  • Kimberly

    Show was great! We didn’t play together. He is still with his band and I’m playing with acoustic shows with another guitarist. We really had fun and great crowd! I had a suprise visit from an old junior high friend. Was so nice to see her.

  • Bree

    I’m new to your site and am progressing through your posts from the beginning.
    I’ve enjoyed them all, I appreciate them all…but…this one in particular kind of struck a chord in me.
    Three years ago, after coming home from work one horrible Wednesday afternoon…I received a disturbing phone call from my husband, it went to voice mail…but I listened to it immediately after. It was him telling me he loved me and that he was sorry…and that was it. He was a drug addict and an alcoholic and it had seemed as though he was “flirting” with the idea of suicide for a few months. Naturally after hearing the message I suspected the worst.
    I went looking for him…and found him…alive, in despair and ready to hang himself from a barn rafter (I’m sorry if that’s too graphic) he already had the rope around his neck, but was just sitting there. I was mortified and relieved at the same moment…I made it in time, I thought…his guardian angels got me there in time, I thought. I was the person who was going to help him…stop him, I thought.
    Unfortunately after about 20 minutes of me pleading with him to come down from where he was…he told me I was the right person for him to have called…and then proceeded to complete his suicide with me helplessly standing by.
    I guess I’ve told myself since then that regardless of how or what we thought we could have done to “stop” or “save” someone else from dying, that if it was meant to be…then it was going to happen no matter what.
    I’ve been to a medium a few times since, and although Brian has come through on each occasion, the events of what happened the day he died has never been “spoken” of. Maybe the medium felt uncomfortable relaying certain messages? Sometimes (knowing the person my husband was) I think he might be too ashamed to “talk” about it.
    Not sure…but reading your blog has made me want to go back and find out more.
    Thank you!! for your dedication and determination to get your son’s words out to the rest of us.

    • Oh my sweet Bree, I wish I was there to give you a big hug. How terrible to bare witness to a suicide. If you’d like to find out more, I’d really talk to him through Jamie. She’s such an open channel. And ask Erik to come along and he will. He can facilitate the communication a lot. If you decide to do that, let me know if you need help with questions. Also, some of the blog members can channel, so if any of them pick up anything, I’m sure they’ll help. You’re now part of a very loving family. The comments are usually as insightful as the posts, often more. And we’re so glad you’re part of us. We’ll do anything to help you.

    • Leigh Lemay

      I too am sorry you had to witness that, Brie. I know this post was four years ago so I’d like to know where you’re at now in your recovery. Finding other suicide witnesses to talk to is so hard. My partner hung himself 47 days ago. He was speaking to me on the phone at the time (well, fighting with me…he had been in an extremely bad rage for a few days because we were having a lot of problems in our relationship). He sent me a picture of himself with the noose around his neck and as soon as I opened it and he knew I had seen it, he kicked his support out from under him. I immediately called an ambulance and when they reached him, he still had a pulse…but as it turned out, he had done too much damage and five days later he passed away. I have never known such pain as this. I have never experienced such loss. Each day is a struggle not to take my own life. I don’t think I will ever forget the picture, the call or the sound. I have had a lot of signs and communications of all sorts, but like Elisa in the beginning of her journey, I also have a very scientific mind…so my skepticism and my ego is battling my spiritual side. Somehow, knowing that you are seven years ahead of me in your grief, I would really appreciate knowing how you are doing. Perhaps you have some insight that can help? Love to you.

  • Bambi

    i’m so sorry for your loss but i am so glad you still are able to have a relationship with your son.

    i find your website is helping me in my own time of loss…my ex fiance (we had not long been broken up) killed himself 3 weeks ago. he said he did it so he could be with me, but also he had a long history of severe depression and suicide attempts. i feel much guilt, regret, and am completely heartbroken – i still love him as my soul twin and am in love with him. the pain is so unbearable.

    i feel i have had some contact from him and its all been comforting, but i get scared when i read things about grieving people having hallucinations and it all being in the mind. i need so much to still have contact with Joe (joejoe) and to know that he’s ok and that he doesn’t hate me for breaking up with him.

    He even contacted me on the day he took his own life but he cried wolf so many times and said suicidal type stuff to me many times i thought to make me feel guilty for the break up, that i didn’t take it seriously at first, and only did once it was already too late, frantically calling him on his mobile but was never able to reach him. so i am trying to forgove myself for that too.

    • Sweet Bambi, I’m so sorry for your loss. Grief is a difficult thing. I’m sure he’s okay, ,but it’d be comforting to know what y’all’s spiritual contracts together were and whether it was his destiny, etc. Maybe you can ask one of the channelers on the forum thread (channeling erik family channelers,) or channel him through Kim, Jamie or Jeannie. In any case, we’re here to help you through this. Much love, Elisa

    • Leigh Lemay

      I know your pain, Bambi. I hope you are doing much better x

  • Bambi

    Hi Elisa – thanks for being so kind to me. I can’t imagine what you’ve gone through and continue to go through having lost our lovely son. I think it’s so important to feel we still have contact, I certainly don’t believe death is the end. It would make everything seem pretty pointless if it was! Any contact I have had from Joejoe has been comforting/beautiful and two times was when I literally begged him for help (I felt so terrible I felt I was about to die myself of heartbreak/my body physically breaking down) I had experiences which made me feel better able to cope afterwards (the last was a loving, very real feeling tight hug as I was waking up from being asleep.) I also heard his voice – it sounded like he was struggling to speak…his voice sounded very full of concern and worry and love for me.

    I would love to know anything about spiritual contracts etc, and whether this really was his time to go..I think those things would provide some comfort. I will look into the chanelling with one of the ladies you mentioned – I am based in the U.K. though so I don’t know if this would be possible?

    I know you have a huge backlog, but would it be possible at some point to ask your Erik if he knows how Joe is doing? I’m worried Joe might still be in a lot of pain and confusion. understand if not, but thought I’d ask just incase. He was/is such a caring, loving, amazingly artistic creative person, always loved others so much but never himself 🙁 I miss him so terribly.

    Erik sounds like a truly beautiful soul, an inspiration.

    Many thanks Elisa, you have helped to make this day a little easier to get through. Much love to you. Bambi x

    • I know what you mean about that feeling of our heart breaking. Grief is so real and tangible, I can feel my heart ache all the time. The ladies I mentioned do phone sessions. Jeannie is very inexpensive, the others are a little more. Right now I’m doing the celebrity channeling, so it might take a while. We do have lots of channelers in the CE family, so maybe one of them can help.

  • bambi

    sorry i meant to say ‘your lovely son’ my typing’s gone a bit down the tubes today!

  • Alli K.

    wow, Elisa. started reading your blog from the beginning yesterday and everything I have read so far is truly amazing. I am a college student who is a huge believer in as much as I know about the spiritual world. My mom, since my grandmother’s passing a few years ago, has evolved so much in her abilities to connect with spirits, her guides, and helps people talk to their loved ones and sends them messages. I live 8 hours away at my college so I am not physically close to my mom but we are very close and talk all the time. I love when she tells me stories or weird things she experienced that day relating to channeling. I plan on reading a few of the books in your “Shelf” because I want to start developing my own abilities as much as I can, even if it is basic. There are a few small things I have experienced in my own life that continue to contribute to my strong beliefs on the spiritual life.
    Will keep reading this blog and good luck with your continued Erik channelings! This is so beautiful to read and I am so happy you (and your family) are able to connect with your son 🙂

    • Yay, I’m glad you’re part of our family now. You know, a great person to practice on is Erik himself. He’s so chatty and his energy is very easy to recognize. If you want, I can give you some tips on how to do that. Just email me at Maybe your mom can also connect with him!

  • Sam

    Hi Elisa. I am really enjoying reading your blogs. I started at the beginning and I am hooked and I just know I will bookmark the page and come back time and time again! I am sorry for your tragic loss but also overjoyed for you that you found Erik again. I am sometimes sceptic and sometimes a believer depending on how bad life is according to my ‘unfair-o-meter’, but your blogs are helping me find my faith in spirit again and reigniting my interest in death and the afterlife. Just wanted to let you know that your blogs are still being found, read and enjoyed. Hello to Erik too!

  • Anne Downing

    Hello Elisa, like you have lost a son to suicide just recently. I have been surfing the net for any kind of help as I am overwhelmed with grief. I found it in your blogs with your son Erik. Finding channelingerik has been life changing for me. I thank you from the bottom of my heart and Erik for revealing the truth about the afterlife. I have always believed in Heaven. I have been seeing a wonderful lady named Fiona, a Spirutal Healer who has helped me get in touch with my own spirituallity. I have also sent my son Chad a message with your link to Erik. My heart skipped a beat when I received a reply. He is currently in therapy and Erik tells me I should contact him again in 1 month and Chad will be able to come to me again. I am now praying for his soul to heal and his happiness to begin. I will continue to read your blogs as it gives me hope.


  • Ane, I hope you keep reading, because this is a wonderful family and we’re just so full of love. I think I’ve received more healing from my CE family than vice versa. Oh, but how I know your pain, Sweetie. If you ever need a good listener, please email me and I’ll give you my phone numbers. We all have your back. Erik, you’ll help her get through this too, won’t you? And please see after her Chad, too.

    • Nicky

      Hello Elisa… I hope you get this. My daughter committed suicide 10 months ago… I am beyond grief. Your thoughts and feelings throughout the process have been so comforting to me. I too am a skeptic, but I so desperately want to believe. I have spoken to John Edward ( I won a randomly selected 5 minute reading wtih him), and I spoke with Jonathan Louis for an hour (I purchased a telephone reading with him). Although Jonathan Louis did say some things that really struck home, neither of them could say the things I’d asked my daughter to say to me so that I could “prove” to myself that she was there. I don’t understand why, because my girl and I were so unbelievably close…. we were truly best friends. And also becuase she was very protective of me, and very loud in this world… I believe she would stop at nothing to get a message through to me to reassure me… but I haven’t gotten it. I looked through all my photos… no orbs…. I look for signs everywhere and I don’t see anything that strikes me… I want ot be careful that I don’t just grab onto things because I’m so desperate for it – but that I am careful and methodical and can prove it is her. Why do some parents get such strong, wonderful messages and I can’t seem to? I would pretty much do anything to get the messages from her that I’ve asked for… I would never question the afterlife again….

      Thank you for reading my message.


  • Sheila Anderson

    I can NOT stop reading your blog! My house is a mess, the laundry needs washed but here I sit! I am already on the computer too much due to a spine injury and the fact that I run a support group on Facebook for LOVEd Ones of Service Members. We have almost 900 members. My son is a soldier. A sweet member of our groups son was just killed by an IED in the war. He was to come home soon. She is devastated. Her other son was very close to his brother and is despondent. I am going to share this blog with Lisa and hope she shares it with her son Adam. Michael was killed Aug. 16 in Panjwa’l, Afghanistan he was assigned to the 1st Battalion, 23rd Infantry Regiment, 3rd Stryker Brigade Combat Team, Joint Base Lewis-McChord, Wash. Here is what Lisa posted the day of his death, “Michael Robert has Deployed to Heaven, I stood in the doorway this afternoon and heard him calling mom over and over.. I went outside looked up and said Im here mikey……. The wind blew through my hair and i heard Im okay mom Im okay…. ”

    I would love it if Erik could contact Michael or his Mom Lisa or brother Adam and help this family. I would love to know Erik’s take on war! Why do we have it! In this stage of our evolution I would think we would have come beyond such barbaric ways of dealing with problems!

    Thanks for all you do to help those mourning.

  • Oh Nicky. How well I know your grief. I, too, was the last to get any messages, evidence or “proof.” Part of it was my innate skepticism, being raised by two atheists. Part of it was fear. What if I did believe only to find out it wasn’t true? It would be like losing Erik all over again. Eventually, I found out that those with the deepest grief (usually us moms) “vibrate” lower on the electromagnetic spectrum. THere’s all science behind it. Everything is energy. Even matter. Even us. Einstein called matter “frozen lightI.” It’s no coincidence that we use words like “down” or “depressed” or “up” or “high vibrations”. And spirits vibrate well outside of the visual part of the electromagnetic spectrum. That’s why we can’t se them. So, they have to lower their frequency for us to see them. Imagine how low they have to go when we’re deep in grief? It helps if we can meet them halfway. To make matters worse, when they’re close to us, we (especially moms) recognize them energetically on a subconscious level and this only magnifies the grief. Erik talks a lot about this and discusses how to pull out of it. You can try the hand game. Put your hands on your knees palms down. Define which hand will be no and which will be yes. Then ask your daughter a yes or no question and see if you feel any sensation on one of your hands-tingling, temperature change etc. It might be very subtle. Also, Erik and Jamie have very intimate, small grieving parents channeling groups conducting on the phone every two weeks. Erik helps bring deceased loved ones over and helps them communicate, That’s one of his jobs. But they only take 5 people for obvious reasons. I don’t think there are any scheduled until after the holidays. They’re very inexpensive too. ANother option is Jeannie Barnes. She’s pretty inexpensive too and you an get an appointment fairly quickly. If you email, I’ll give you my phone numbers to have if you need someone to talk. Been there, done that, bought the t-shirt. My email is And don’t worry. The Channeling Erik Family is very loving. We have your back.

  • Mathilda Moon

    Hi. I’m new to the site, as of this morning. I’m confused and I hope you might have some understanding that can clear it up. In the Jan. 21st post, Kim remarks that Erik didn’t receive the usual ‘counseling’ that comes with passing through suicide, but in this post, Erik talks about his counseling experience. Has Kim ever explained this discrepancy? Peace and love to you and your family. 🙂

    • Colin

      Different types of therapy I presume. He was offered counseling in this instance. Earlier, it would have been a mandatory alone type therapy almost like a temporary purgatory

  • Great question! He did have to go through some “therapy” to review “past” lives (there is no time there as you’ll see later) to see how it affected this last life. But this exit point was something he planned. He needed to suffer a lot so he could develop more compassion, listening skills and other traits that would make him a better teacher. Most suicides don’t make such a plan.

  • lesliedinga

    Elisa, this is just amazing…. thank you…I am breathless at how comforting your words are. My son was killed in a motorcycle accident 3 mos ago and to read these words from you and your son is just astonishing and so needed.

    • I hope that, reading through the archives, you’ll find more comfort. Hugs.

  • lettyStarWorld025


  • I love this. I am so happy to be reading his explanation of his “review” process. That has transitioned into my new fear, not of dying but in fact what i will see when I “review”. To hear it was such a tiny moment in all of his experience that the candles are still burning, I think that may just calm some anxiety. Cant wait to read more, I am on a binge right now going to read every last page! My husband and I have lost so many friends in the last ten years, suicides and accidents I love finding out more about their home. xoxox

  • Sandra

    this is amazing…. it reminds me of harry potter, it makes sense everything! Its really what I needed!!

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