Tag: Death of a Child

Early Morning Visit

Early Morning Visit

Around four o’clock in the morning, I received a pleasant surprise–a visit from Erik. I was lying down on my left side facing away from the edge of the bed hovering somewhere between the sleep state and the wake state when I suddenly felt a presence behind me. In my peripheral vision, I could easily…

Erik, the TV Star

Erik, the TV Star

Just when we thought he had grown tired of his little pranks with our appliances, Erik strikes again…twice. His new gig…messing with televisions. His first TV appearance occurred at my eldest daughter’s apartment a couple of days ago. Sometimes she feels Erik’s presence when she goes upstairs to her bedroom at night. This apparently freaks…

Ask Erik: Essie’s Question

Ask Erik: Essie’s Question

My heart goes out to this next woman, because she and I share similar tragedies. Both our boys took their own lives very recently at the tender age of 20. Let’s see if Erik can help console and heal Essie as he has helped me. Essie’s Question Hi Elisa, Thank you for being willing to…

Crisis of Faith

Crisis of Faith

The last couple of months have been difficult for me. I haven’t really felt Erik’s presence for what seems like an eternity. No sounds, no signs, no smells, no nothing. This paucity of evidence along with my ever-present tendency to analyze and doubt has begun to erode my faith. Yesterday, I had an epiphany about…

Finding Strength in the Dark Forest of Grief

Finding Strength in the Dark Forest of Grief

Many readers have commented on how strong I am despite having just lost a son. After all, can there be any greater travesty than the death of one’s child? For me, no nightmare is as grim. The grief is still raw and fresh like an open wound. Yet since my blog explores the “upside” to…

Ask Erik: Lauren’s Question

Ask Erik: Lauren’s Question

Mother’s Day looms in the near future like a dark specter taunting me. I feel so conflicted. On the one hand, I should be rejoicing that day. After all, I do have four wonderful children still here with me on the earthly plane. On the other hand, this is the first Mother’s Day without Erik…

Channeling Erik Through Felix Lee Lerma, Part Five

Channeling Erik Through Felix Lee Lerma, Part Five

And now (drum roll, please) for the final segment in my channeling session with psychic medium extraordinaire, Felix Lee Lerma. As always, comments are welcome. Erik wants you to quit beating yourself up over what happened. Yeah. He said you’re being hard on yourself. Well I think back on my last conversation with him before…

Channeling Erik Through Felix Lee Lerma, Part Four

Channeling Erik Through Felix Lee Lerma, Part Four

Before we begin with the next segment of my session with psychic medium, Felix Lerma, I’d like to make an announcement. Yesterday, I had a very short session with Kim O’Neill,, and I used that opportunity to ask some of the questions readers submitted through the “Ask Erik” page. I will post those transcripts soon….

Channeling Erik Through Felix Lerma, Part Three

Channeling Erik Through Felix Lerma, Part Three

I’ve been having a very hard time lately. It seems like I must work so hard to distract myself. Idle moments take me to a very dark and unhappy place. The images of what he looked like when I found his body, his blank and lifeless stare, the smell of gunpowder and blood in the…

Channeling Erik Through Psychic Medium, Felix Lee Lerma

Channeling Erik Through Psychic Medium, Felix Lee Lerma

A friend tipped me off to Felix Lee Lerma, a young psychic medium living in San Francisco who apparently is very well-regarded, conducting readings for a number of celebrities and other famous people. I had to wait four agonizingly long months for my appointment to finally arrive. I’ll break my hour long session into several…

Life’s Work in Heaven

Life’s Work in Heaven

After these many months of having inside information about the afterlife, I’ve discovered how oddly similar Heaven is to the earthly plane. Aside from the fact that you have no body and have greater abilities to manifest what you want immediately, so may aspects seem the same. Discarnate souls can have homes, material possessions, and…

Past Lives

Past Lives

I often wondered why Erik was such an enigma. He was brought up in a loving and nurturing environment with endless opportunities to thrive. He was surrounded by so many friends who loved him. He was exposed to wonderful adventures, hobbies and destinations. So, why did he feel so lonely all the time? Why did…

Working with Energy

Working with Energy

Since Erik’s death, one of my deepest desires has been to see him, to hold him, to hug him, to kiss him, to hear the sound of his voice and his wonderfully infectious laugh. As you can see from various entries, we’ve been blessed by numerous occasions when he’s been tangible through our senses of…

Punked Again!

Punked Again!

Let me start by saying I have this thing about being organized. Very organized. I have lists for everything, even lists of my lists. This personality trait probably evolved because of my ADHD as a means of finding order in my own personal chaos. I don’t know if I could have survived medical school otherwise….

Erik and the Fortune Cookie

Erik and the Fortune Cookie

When I was a kid, fortune cookies were kick ass. (I was fairly easy to please.) Seriously, they pointed you in the right direction, gave clarity to a muddled path, and were just, well, fun! Now, it’s all about moral advice for morons: the early bird gets the worm, people in glass houses, yada, yada,…

Busy Guy, Big Projects

Busy Guy, Big Projects

“Where would you like to begin this morning, Elisa?” Kim begins. ‘Well first of all I’d like to see if he’s around and if he is, I want to see how he’s doing and tell him I love him,’ I say. “Hi Mom!” He says that in a “Where else would I be” way, Kim…

From the Beginning

From the Beginning

Many of you are new to the site, so I’d like to re-post entries from the beginning so that you won’t miss anything that might either interest you, endow you with a new understanding of all things spiritual, or help heal those who have also suffered a tragic loss. Let’s begin with the life and…

Erik on the Future and Time

Erik on the Future and Time

In this part of the channeling session, Erik shares his views on how he and I will work together as a team to help others and the truth behind the concept of time. “Mom, do you have any idea how many people on the earthly plane need you to help them heal?” Okay, I’m thinking…

Ask Erik: Ruiz Family Questions

Ask Erik: Ruiz Family Questions

In this entry, you will see that grief is the great equalizer. I transcends ethnicity, religion, cultural background, socioeconomic levels, and in this case, even vast distances. Here is a question Irene posed to Erik from her homeland in the Philippines: “Dear Erik and Elisa:  You guys are living in Texas while we are here…

Ask Erik: Jean’s Questions

Ask Erik: Jean’s Questions

The next question is from a bereaved mother very much like me. In fact, her son, Tyler, died only 9 days before Erik’s death and both were just 20 years old at the time of their passing. Here is the mother’s submission to Erik: “Erik, my son died 5 months ago. Do you meet strangers…

Erik’s First Visits

Erik’s First Visits

After Erik’s death, my entire family and I plunged into a state of numbness. We were shaken by a grief so profound each minute seemed like an eternity. Making the funeral arrangements from choosing a casket and burial plot to deciding what clothes he should wear in his perpetual sleep was an agony that clawed…

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