I remember long ago when Kristina was around five and Michelle was around two, we were planning a trip to Cozumel, Mexico. But as the date for the trip loomed nearer, I felt uneasy. I had traveled by plane many, many times and, with the exception of airsickness (Yes, before the patch was invented, I would be the last one off of a plane, rolling down the jetway in a wheelchair. I know the routine for the cleanup crew by heart.) Anyway, as I was saying before I so rudely interrupted myself, with the exception of airsickness, I’ve never had qualms about flying, so this was uncharacteristic. I was so filled with dread over the next two days that I even went to some kooky palm reader (a desperate move considering what a skeptic I was) to see if tragedy was in my near future. I can’t remember what she said, but it was completely unsatisfactory. So I asked my husband if we could change the flight, and we did. We decided to go to the Cayman Islands. 

The day after we got there, Rune decided to go Scuba diving. I was pregnant (of course) so my job was to take care of the kids. When it was time for his boat to come back in, the kids and I headed for the beach, and we waited. And waited. And waited. I was getting concerned. Maybe Jaws had swallowed the boat, divers and all. Eventually, I saw another dive boat come in and, instructing the kids to stay seated at a picnic table, I walked over and asked the captain if he knew where the boat in question was. He said it was coming soon, I thanked him, turned around and saw only Kristina sitting quietly at the table. I scanned frantically for Michelle and found her face down in the water just off the beach. She had knocked herself out on a piece of coral or something. I felt like a terrible mother. Then, I went into action. I flew to her (I swear I flew horizontally, a funny sight given that I was very pregnant) fished her out of the water and started giving her artificial respiration. She came to, coughing and sputtering, and was perfectly fine for the rest of the trip. Then it dawned on me. This was what I was picking up. Who knows, maybe the outcome would have been tragic if we had kept our original plans. Anyway, the rest of the trip was wonderful, and when we were waiting in the Cayman Island Airport to board our flight back to Houston, Michelle went from stranger to stranger and announced, “Hi, I’m Michelle. I drownded and my mommy saved me.” Of course she took the precaution of asking each if they were a stranger because she wasn’t supposed to talk to any of those. 

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Me: Now for the last topic for this session. Fear and intuition. Some people have a, well I have a hard time distinguishing the two. “Oh my god, I have a flight tomorrow, and maybe the plane’s going to crash.” You have a lot of fear; maybe you want to change the ticket, etc. How can you tell if it’s intuition, like you’re picking up on something real versus fear with no grounds?

Erik: Well fear is imagination-based. It’s not coming from anywhere. It’s the lack of knowing, and if you don’t know something, then you create something to fill in the vacuum. That’s imagination. Sometimes we’re wired to the negative. I guess sometimes means more often than not.

(Pause)

Jamie (to Erik): Is that funny?

Erik: You’ll think about the worst-case scenario. “Oh, if the plane goes down, I’ll probably be sitting next to a kid.” “Oh, I’ll probably—“

Jamie: He goes on and on and on about different flight woes.

Erik: When you do that and your head is going through the loop, then that’s fear. That’s imagination. You’re creating it. You’re staying focused on it; you’re building on it, telling stories about it. You’re doing it. You’ll know when you’re self-creating it. But then let’s say you’re doing the dishes, and you’re not even thinking about your flight. You’re not feeling any concern, happiness, worry—nothing. Your flight is not in your scope. Then, all of a sudden, you get this image and the flight it rough. You don’t need to be on it whether it’s poor timing or you’re going to come across someone better in the next flight or, there are all kinds of things that can happen in these cases. You might lose your luggage and taking a later flight might mean you have everything. So you get that image. Boom. Very clear. It’s not muddy. You’re not sitting there going, “I wonder what that means?” It’s not that because your brain will do some—

(Long pause)

Jamie: I wanted him to reword it.

Erik: Your brain will do some flashes of images, but it’ll be triggered by thoughts you had previously. Just like—

Jamie: Period. There doesn’t have to be an example, right? He’s just repeating the same thing.

Erik: You’re thinking about something, and you’re building on it and your focused on it. That’s fear. When it’s coming into you head when you’re not thinking about it, and it’s really clear, you can then ask yourself, “Was that me?” And if you get a “yes,” or you feel like it’s a yes, then you’re creating it. Then you have to just chalk it up to [imagination.] But if it’s a “no,” and you’re really confused about why you got the picture, and it’s just bizarre, that’s intuition. Remember like we talked about—

Jamie: Well not everyone was there!

He’s referring to the Channeling Erik Weekend of F***ing Enlightenment in Denver the weekend before.

Erik: Like we talked about in Denver. You’re capability for thought is much like having an antenna, and that antenna can pick up energetic vibrations whether they’re other people’s thoughts or a mass consciousness kind of thing, you can pick up on it and translate it, but the issue is that we believe all the thoughts that we possess, all the thoughts that we have belong to us. That’s not always the case, and that’s why intuition comes to us so easily this way because it’s just “pop,” the antenna picks it up, reads it, drops it into our head and we’re like, “Wow. I’m going to lose all my luggage on this flight. It’d be much better for me to take the later flight. That’d be great.” So you make the change, you take the flight, and you get all your luggage.

Me: Anything else on intuition vs. fear? Oh, one last question. Intuition. Where does it come from, your higher self, your guides, your guardian angels, all of the above?

Erik: All of the above. Higher consciousness, that’s your antenna, is coming from angels, guides, the deceased, family members, mass consciousness, All That Is. That pretty much sums it up. Everyone.

Me: Okay. Everything.

Have a wonderful weekend, peeps!