Erik’s Growth, Part Two

Today is a very sad day. A friend that my daughter, Annika, has known since preschool died Friday in a very tragic way. She and our family were very close. She even traveled with us to San Antonio and Florida. I went to the viewing yesterday, and, as is always the case, it was clear to me that what remained of Emma was a shell. The spark in her eye that was her soul was gone. I plan to help with the wake, but, although I fully intended to, I just can’t go to the memorial service. It would remind me of Erik’s. My heart just bleeds for the family. I remember the call from the cornea donation place, having to pick out a casket, the corner decorations, the marker and its message, the plot, the clothes he would wear. I remember looking at his neck and getting a glimpse of the Y incision made during his autopsy. I remember caressing his hair only to have some of it come off, because they had to put color matched “fake” hair to cover up the bullet hole. It triggers so much pain, but I plan to take her mother under my wing and help her get through this. I know when Erik died there was no one there who had lost a child. 

By the way, I forgot to tell you that Erik used to always wear the same kind of hat as that dude in the Believe video. He loved fedoras. I didn’t get that connection until after I posted the YouTube, but I think that’s pretty cool. Plus, the guy’s energy reminds me so much of Erik’s. 

Here’s yet another neglected post. I think I have one more. Also, I just wanted to tell you guys that I just interviewed Farrah Fawcett and Meher Baba. I have to finish the session I’m transcribing now, but then I’ll get on these. Each of them takes me several days, because my days are so full of other things. I hope you look forward to them!

Me: Okay. Anything about your growth? I’m not focusing on you, Erik. About you.  I know about your trying to understand the difference between participation and involvement thing.

Erik: That is part of my growth.

Me: Yeah, but how else are you doing there? Tell me your life over there. What’s going on besides just helping me? Now, for every one hour you talk about me, I want you to spend one hour talking about you!

Jamie giggles.

Erik: I did. I told you about how I’m learning how to be involved but not be involved.

Me: Okay. Well, what else? What else is going on in your life?

Erik: Oh, my god, that’s like been the biggest topic on my head for about two months.

Me: Well, do you have any fun over there? What do you do with your day besides blog-related things?

Erik: My fun is playing with my balls.

Jamie (laughing hard): Oh, Erik!

Me: Oh, god. Well, it always has been probably. (Sigh) What else, Erik?

Jamie is still laughing.

Me: By the way, a lot of people seem to have crushes on you, but I saw one comment in the Channeling Erik group, “Yeah, I always had a crush on him, but now I really do once I found out he had a big package.”

Jamie laughs. I don’t know how much more of this she can take.

Jamie: He’s just laughing. He’s pointing at his crotch and going, “That’s the ticket.”

I giggle.

Jamie (to Erik): You wish you knew how to use it! Next topic, Erik. Um, he’s showing me a picture of being on—it’s a motorcycle, but it’s not like a Harley. It’s one of those fancy ones with the—

Me: Like a crotch rocket?

Jamie (laughing): Crotch rocket! Yeah.

Me: Okay.

Jamie: Doo—dook—

Me: Ducati? Okay, yeah.

(My husband only rides Ducatis and Erik used to love riding my red Ducati Monster.

Jamie: And, um (Pause) He’s showing me a bunch of pictures. He’s on it. It’s a steel gray color and he’s on a road that has no speed limit.

Me: I hope you’re wearing your helmet.

Jamie: It’s kind of a mountainous place, but it looks like a highway. He said it’s on Earth. Oh, the, um. Oh my god, I just totally forgot the name of it. That road that doesn’t have a speed limit. It’s in Europe, right?

Me: Oh, the Autobahn, for one?

Jamie: The Autobahn, yeah. So, yeah, he apparently has a few other friends who are biker fans as well.

Erik: We kind of blow steam off by doing that.

Me: Good!

Erik: It’s not racing, though. It’s just the joy of riding.

Me: All right. Anything else you wanna talk about? Your fun? Your life over there? I forget to ask you these things, because these sessions are so blog-driven. I want to know more about my baby!

Erik: Well, tell Pappa not to be disappointed that I’m not racing, but I am still enjoying them.

Me: Good. The Ducati is his favorite bike. That’s it. That’s what he races with.

Jamie: Are you serious?

Me: Yeah.

Erik: It’s not like we have a garage full of them or anything, because we don’t need to keep them like that. We just manifest them. If it’s something we can think about, create and dream up, then we can get it.

Me: That’s awesome.

Erik: Yeah, it’d definitely be good for the Earth, that whole recycling thing.

Me: Okay, tell me one more thing that you do during the day. Or night. As if there were day and night.

Jamie: That is wild, because when you said “night” I didn’t see it at all. There was no image. It was just kind of a softer version of a day.

Me: Oh!


Me: You go clubbing?

Jamie: No, he’s showing me this building he’s walking into, and it’s huge! It’s not tall. It’s maybe 12 or 13 stories tall. Not like a skyscraper or anything, but it’s got a fascinating shaped roof. It’s kind of domed or domed with a little bit of wave. It makes you wonder how it’s standing up like that.

Me: Oh, okay.

Jamie: And tons of glass. Tons of light coming in. Very unique. Almost reminds me of an observatory, but on a way huger scale. And he says there are places, he’s saying the word, but I don’t get it! It’s the name of the building. It’s some name for the building. You go in and you, um—

(Long pause)

Jamie: Sorry. It’s more images that words right now, so I’m trying to watch and then know what I’m about to explain, because I don’t know what it is. I know I’m in a room structure, but there’s something about it where you can transport yourself.

Me: Hm!

Jamie: Time. Space. Cuz I know that the body, itself—the spirit—can think. It’s driven by attraction and it can go where it needs to go or wants to go, and that’s how spirits travel. But he’s talking about going to other universes and galaxies.

Me: Is it like a portal? Is that what you’re saying?

Erik: Yeah, we can say it’s like a portal, but it’s not electronically driven. Nobody goes, “What’s your destination please, Sir” and then they pull a switch.

Jamie and I laugh.

Me: Beam me up, Scotty! Well, can you do that outside of the building? Aren’t you able to think about another galaxy and be there?

Erik: Well, yes, but this is the building where we learn about these other galaxies or remember them, because there is so much—there are infinite amount information and knowledge. It’s not like we carry that all around in our consciousness. So, when you wanna go and learn about a new place—it’s not really learning. It’s just recalling. Pulling the information back in.

Me: Okay.

Erik:  It’s almost like trigger rooms. You know, you go into a room and you go, “I remember this place. Of course. It’s called this, and this is where it’s located in the stars.”

Me: So it reinserts or you reinsert into your consciousness that bit of information of those memories.

Erik: Right, and you have to have that clarity before you can transport yourself to that place.

Me: Okay.

Erik: Because if you’re not clear, you ain’t going to get there. That’s stupid.

Me: Yeah. You have to know—

Erik: It’s like saying, “I want a sandwich” and like, what the fuck are you going to get then? You didn’t specify ham, cheese, lettuce and tomato. You’re just going to get this shit that you created. Then you’re going to be disappointed and you have to think about what sandwich you really want, so…

Me: Exactly. All right.

Great. Now I’m starving.


Dear Reader,

The journey on which you’re about to embark will take you through stories that are deeply personal and involves a relationship between a mother and her son.

As a physician raised by two atheists, I had no personal belief system about life after death. In a word, I was a confirmed skeptic. As my journey progressed, my mind opened. It is my sincerest hope that yours will open as well and that you will have a greater understanding of your own life and what’s to come ahead.

Although Erik sometimes paints a rosy picture of the afterlife, time and time again he stresses that suicide is not the answer to one’s problems. If you struggle, please understand that the information in my blog and my book is no substitute for professional help. Please click here for a list of resources for help when you find yourself considering taking your own life. Know that they are readily available when you feel that hopelessness and despair that many of us feel from time to time in our lives.

I refuse all donations and ad revenue on the blog. It is my dream to one day establish a nonprofit organization that delivers a variety of spiritual services for those who have lost loved ones to suicide and cannot afford that assistance on their own. It’s a mission of love, sacrifice, and dedication.

Love and light,


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  • teresa

    Elise this is all so very interesting. I am so very pleased to have found this site. God bless you

  • Carla Carney Pizzuti Finke

    Elsie, well that teared me up about your daughters friend…But, don’t you think Erik went and greeted her….he will be a blessing to her I am sure. Its hard to take the pain away from a mother/parent…, my son was 29, and to even speak of it, brings tears to my eyes.. And Erik, we biker people appreciate the ride!

    • Yes in fact Erik did greet her. I asked them to take her under his wing. She’s having a tough time. The transition was peaceful but she has a lot of anger for yourself plus she’s a little shellshocked.

      • Carla Carney Pizzuti Finke

        i can imagine. Glad he was there to help her. When my son passed, and he was non-believer of the after life, I kept having this vision of my fiance (who had passed almost exactly 2 years to the date before my son) anyway…I just kept seeing the image of my fiance…greeting my son…right there in his bedroom, coming up and giving one of those brother hugs, handshake, pulled the the chest hug. I felt like when my son was greeted by Scott (my fiance) that he knew then, that he had passed. Because of his non-belief system, I kept telling him to keep it in the back of his head, that just in case he was wrong about death, I didn’t want him to be confused. I think that is why Scott showed up to greet him..that way he had no doubts!

  • Zahra

    Thank you!

  • julie b.

    I’m so terribly sorry for the family, their loss and the hurt and memories this brings to you. I know without a doubt that you will be the strength that this mother will so desperately need. You give so much of yourself and I am glad that Erik was there with undeniable evidence that this newly passed soul is with him. I just cannot say thank you enough for all that you do and how deeply saddened I am for this family.

  • Oktobre Taylor

    My heart goes out to the family who lost their daughter so suddenly. If you think of it like birth on earth, is it like an emergency c-section or like when a baby is born prematurely?

    You know I can’t possibly leave this on a sad note. When I read my own comment about Erik’s package, I seriously had an asthma attack because I was laughing so hard. I had forgotten I said that and in retrospect it is REALLY funny. I have talked about how Erik sends me horses….images of majestic beings running freely….but it isn’t entirely about that photo of him with a horse. It is mostly a constant reminder to me that he is “hung like a horse”. Hahahahaha

    • Ha ha!! That’s hilarious.

    • Kari Silver Lining Mena

      I knew that was you…!

    • Jen

      I knew it had to be you too!

  • Sue

    Sorry to learn about Emma’s passing. I hope you and your daughter get the support, understanding, and closure you need from Erik and others. It is always difficult when children pass (even adult children). Our knowledge of the spirit world helps us understand that life continues, but it may not dull the pain we feel. Take care of yourself, your family, and your friends. Peace.

  • Deb Keckley

    Elisa Hugs…I wanted to express more. But just can’t seem to find it. What caught my eye is your dream to start a non profit center for those who cannot afford these services. I hope you do. There’s a great deal of learning and joy when you just do for someone because you can. Blessings.

  • Jeanette DiPasquale

    So sorry about your daughters friend and I am glad that Erik is with her. When the time is right I would like to know how she is doing. I believe she can also share some things that would be very beneficial and helpful not only to the blog members but also to her mom and the rest of the family. Much peace to them.
    I remember very well when my mom passed and being at the wake looking at her body, I had the same feeling as you did Elisa I knew that I was looking at a shell but I also could feel her. Hard to put into words but she was a big as the church where the funeral was, her spirit was huge and I could feel it. Much peace to everyone.

  • cristina

    sending love and healing to the family that lost their loved one <3 May their suffering be quickly replaced by understanding <3

    About the post Elisa and Erik, be blessed for making me laugh – I haven't been laughing out loud in days and I just realized it 🙂

  • Jen

    I detest funerals, especially after having supported my mother through the loss of her brother by Alzheimer’s. It just rended my heart apart more than any other funeral I had been to.

    My heart goes out to dear Emma so that she may have peace for herself and to her family so that they may feel the blissful rest that will be instilled in their daughter.

  • JoAnn

    When Erik talks about the building the trigger room,,,this makes me think harder about my vision pertaining to the stone circles like Stone Hedge and others,,,i seen that the circles if you sit in the centers,,,it is like a trigger spot,,,with built in reference points(rocks/stones) so the conscious can Know the direction in the stars to go to get to the desired place(galaxie/planet),,,most of the tv shows and documentaries assume they are all related somehow to sirius or orion,,,but all of them are different ,,,i wish i could easily explain what i saw in the vision,,,but i do not know the star charts ,constellations enough to even talk sensibly about them. I believe that if bloggies would learn astrology ,,then we could all learn to use these energies to help us in our daily lives,,,One Day soon,,,i have faith because Erik says changes will be here and new lifestyles will come into play for us all.


    I’m so sorry about Annika. Hugs to you, your family and her family. Everyone in your blog family understands that certain things bring your own loss(es) crashing back down on you, especially the necessities surrounding the services.
    Erik is truly a gem and I hope he’s been able to meet my sister and uncle…I think they’d like each other very much and have many “askew” laughs.

  • Nate

    It sounds like so much fun to be able to imagine something and then have it come into being instantly. Travelling and teleporting at the speed of light doesn’t sound too bad either! I wonder if that girl saw something before she left her body or if it was just like “okay now you’re out!” and she had to make sense of all.

  • sathyavrath

    I am looking towards the interview with Meher Baba

    • It’s coming, but I have so much in line before it that it could take about a month. I am pushing it forward in the queue, otherwise it’d probably take 6-8 months!

      • I’m glad you’re so open-minded. A lot of people couldn’t wrap their heads around what Hitler said in the interview and there was some mild backlash. Yes there will be more interviews. I have tons I haven’t posted yet and after that I’ll start making my way through the 400+ still on the list! We’re in it for the long haul.

  • Waverley Ray

    I feel badly for Annika’s friend’s soul; that transitioning is so disorienting. I am sure having Erik there helps considerably because he is so “awake.” I pray some of her past pets come to greet her too; that can be of great comfort. AND those images of things that happened to you when you touched Erik’s body, after his soul left—that pain—is so indescribable–and yet when you talk about it…you help us all heal.
    The portal building is fascinating.
    Peace and light and love to the family of Annika’s friend.

  • JB

    I am so truly sorry for your loss Elisa and the feelings it has brought back. At least it’s comforting to know Erik is there to help Annika as you are here to help her mom. HUGE hugs!

    • Thank you.

      • It’s interesting that you talk about Emma’s pets. She adored animals, including her two big (I mean giant) labs. This experience has actually been healing for me in that it’s so good to be able to help someone in that terrible circumstance.

      • Waverley Ray

        Elisa, I am so glad you are at a place where you can give your loving support (without dying again inside). I am not there yet when it comes to my grief. I hope to be supportive to others going through the grieving process when I am less raw.
        Sylvia Browne said that we can’t get to the people immediately, who are there to meet us on the other side, because all of the animals who we were good to on this side—rush us when we cross over. I love that image. I think of all the little mice I saved from glue traps at work shooting towards me. I sensed that Emma’s spirit was an animal-loving-spirit.
        Peace, Wave

      • M&M

        My heart goes out to you all, Elisa. Not only are you able to help your friends through this horrible death experience, this should also show you how far you have come. I hope you find some peace in knowing that. You have come a long way, my dear friend. Blessings to you all.

        P.S.- I’m a little late in catching up as my computer only shows the top entry, which is stuck on “Feb 19th New Visitors”, so it took me a while to scroll down and see that there were other entries being posted. My bad…

  • Maya

    So saaad. Sorry for your loss. Buhuhuuu…

    • Are you being sarcastic? It’s hard to tell from your comment.

      • Maya

        Of course not. Sorry if I don’t express my condolences very well.:(

      • I figured. It’s really hard to convey emotions and tone in text form. I can’t tell you how much trouble I’ve gotten myself in for that very reason.

  • You’re spot on. Instead of flowers, the family requested a donation to an animal charity of some sort.

  • Maya

    Speaking about Erik’s growth, you’ll never know if one day Erik will invite an artist to chanelled drawing him? For example, this person chanelled drawing Ishuwa the alien:

    I also saw on TV there was a girl who chanelled drawing Jesus, heavens, etc.

    • I think I’ve seen a documentary on this very talented girl. She’s amazing!

  • Ethan Matthews

    Elisa, did Emma’s parents get in contact with a medium? Did it help them?

    • I’m not sure!

      • Ethan Matthews

        Oh, I would have thought you would have recommended a medium to them to help ease their pain. I guess its not too late to give them suggestions for a good medium.

      • I don’t think I have their contact info. 🙁

      • Ethan Matthews

        I bet Annika has their phone number or address. You should ask her. They might also be in the phone book. The funeral home might also still have their contact info.

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