Me: Erik, why couldn’t you have achieved just as much good if you had stayed alive?

(Long pause)

Erik (teasing): I know that’s not you writing that.

Me: Oh, yes it is. You know it is. You’re just being sarcastic.

Erik: You’ve obviously never been bipolar.

Me: Well, why couldn’t have been energetically cured from your bipolar disease and, you know…

Erik: Well, energetically, that would have been nice and everything, but it was a physical thing, and it was something that I signed up for.

Me: I know, but why couldn’t you have signed up to do everything you’re doing now, but on the physical plane? Why couldn’t the spiritual contract have been different?

Erik: Number one, I didn’t set it up that way. Number two, I wouldn’t have had to go through the struggles of taking every ounce of emotional strength to end my life to find a better me. My personal struggle—first of all, I know it’s so fucking hard to sit on the other side of the fence and watch anyone suffer.

Me (choking back tears): Oh, yeah.

Erik: A lot of times we just can’t provide the comfort or the know-how. And I know a lot of people want to reach out and help you, Mom, but you know, they just don’t have the words. They don’t have the know-how. All of them would just love to see just a really big fucking happy story for you, and the best happy story for you would be if my life didn’t play out the way it did.

Me: Sure.

Erik: And we could live in a world of “what ifs” all we want, but it’s not going to help you in the moment that you’re living now. And, for me, like I was saying before, I chose to have that contract—

Jamie (clearing her throat):  He’s a little bit more emotional; he’s really more thoughtful, and my throat feels really small and tight.

(Pause)

Jamie: He just apologized to me. “Sorry.”

Me: Aw.

Jamie: He’s leaning back. And I said to him, ‘You know, I was explaining to your Mom how I feel.’

Erik: Well, if I didn’t have that choice in my life, then I wouldn’t have the know-how or the drive to be the person I am right now.

Jamie clears her throat again.

Erik: This wouldn’t have come about if I had stayed on Earth. And if I had stayed on, I would have struggled with the bipolar.

Me: Why did you need the emotional struggle to do what you’re doing now?

Erik: To see the importance.

(Pause)

Me: Of?

(Long pause)

Jamie: Whoa, I just got this huge, sharp pain in my chest! Right in the center of my sternum!

Me: Oh, sorry!

Jamie clears her throat for a while.

Jamie: It’s gone now. That was crazy! That felt like a three-inch pole just went through my chest.

Me: Oh, Erik.

(Pause)

Jamie: It’s just how it’s going to be.

(Pause)

Jamie (giggling): I’m scooting away from him.

Me: Yeah!

Jamie: You know, he’s telling me that around my birthday, my gifts get better. So, I’ve grown through the past to learn that this month might give me something new, and I’m starting to feel a lot more. That started last year. So, when he changes emotions, I usually listen for it in the tone of his voice or his facial expression, and now I’m starting to feel it.

Me: Oh!

Jamie: So, now he’s kind of walking me through it. He told me it’s going to get more, and I need to get prepared for it. I just thought I’d tell you where the conversation was going.

Me: Okay.

Jamie: Cuz, um, he said he had to learn the importance of love, of relationships, and that’s why I had that sharp jab, spear thing through my chest. It’s all about the heart chakra’s energy. That vibration, that use of energy—

Erik: I couldn’t maintain that energy when I was on Earth.

Me: Okay. Anything else?

Jamie: I don’t know if it pertains to anything, but he just leaned over and said, “Human life isn’t all that.”

Me: Isn’t all that? Oh, is that one of the reasons you had to get away from it?

Erik: Yes.

Me: Yeah, sometimes it ain’t, let me tell ya, but it’s only temporary.

Erik: Thank god.

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