I had to laugh thinking about this title. Erik covers all of these in this post, but it’s weird to see “Jesus” and “Paddleball” in the same phrase. Is it sacrilegious? More important, does Jesus play paddleball? You be the judge. All I know is that my hand-eye coordination sucks so bad that I’m not going to enter a paddleball competition with him! Enough of that. Here’s the post.

Me: Erik, you talked about Oneness, how we’re all one and are interacting with our other selves, but we need boundaries to protect ourselves, emotionally and not lose everything. However, you also said that when you merge with Source, that’s what happens. You surrender your individual identity and become all awareness at once.

Erik: Mom, the person who asked this question is thinking that every time you die, you merge with Source and there are no boundaries, so they’re thinking that I’m confused. But you don’t merge with Source every time. You still maintain this individuality. You still have that ability to access all the information. You don’t become all knowing. When you become all knowing, that’s when you surrender and completely merge with “God.” Maybe they’re wondering why, when I went back, there are boundaries, but when you merge there are none. Because it’s all done in the timing or process that you pick for yourself. So maybe I should have talked about—it’s so difficult. When you guys want to talk about process, you want to talk about the organization of it like “Step one,” “Step two.”

I chuckle.

Erik: It’s not like that at all!

Me: I know. We’re difficult! It’s so hard to get out of the human brain and its logic.

Erik: Yeah, it’s pretty engrained in there.

Me: Yeah, so when you talked about merging with Source, you used the paddleball as an example. PADDLEBALL POST But when you merge with Source completely to where you have the awareness of all, you can get out again, right?

Erik: Yeah, it’s not permanent unless you want it to be. Whatever your heart desires, that’s what your reality will be. So if you feel stuck, or if you have that sensation of feeling stuck that you want to grow away from, you can. There’s no true “away.” We’ll always have that connection. You can—

Jamie (laughing): Erik, you need a whole new vocabulary, man!

We both laugh.

Jamie: He’s looking for a word that means separation that doesn’t mean there are two completely different things.

Me: Mm hmm. I understand. It’s like the paddleball. The rubber string that separates us (the ball) from Source (the paddle,) never severs.

Erik: Yeah, that one elastic band never breaks.

Me: Okay. Now, this person goes on to say, “I agree with you that we need boundaries to protect our emotions and our identities, but isn’t it our ignorance that defines our individuality and our separation from Source? The more we grow and expand, the greater our understanding and love becomes and the less fear we have—the fear boundaries we need until we completely return to Source.” I don’t know. This is not really a question, but…

Erik: He’s using the word, “ignorance” for the spiritual amnesia part.

Me: Ah!

Erik: That’s not ignorance. That’s part of the plan, man. That’s part of why you jump back into a body, to get the damn break, to be able to start again.

Me: Okay.

Erik: Think about it, Mom. The first time that you really wanted to hug someone, and you knew that it was love, you know like you’re body is, “Oh my god; I’m being touched everywhere, and my stomach feels so excited,” and you go, “Oh my god, are they going to kiss me?” That whole, wooo. That whole body experience.

Me: Mm hmm.

Erik: Well if you’ve had it before with that person, and you go to do it again, it’s not going to feel the same. There’s this quality of newness in the amnesia that makes you feel like you’re doing it for the first time, but you’re not. That will enlighten you more. There’s a huge gift in not remembering. There’s gift in what the reader is calling “ignorance.” It’s something that we do want, and that’s why we keep on having this amnesia every time we come back into a life. The ultimate goal is not incarnating and remembering everything; that’s ruining the gig. You can go to other worlds and other realms to get that shit.

Me: But you said that we’re here to relearn, which is kind of like remembering.

Erik: Yeah, and part of relearning is not having it in the first place.

Me: Ah, okay. Got it. So you need fewer boundaries as you grow and expand and understand—

Erik: As you grow closer to Love.

Me: As you grow closer to Love you need fewer boundaries.

Erik: Yeah. Then you’re more and more comfortable with that natural vulnerability, not the one that humans define in a way that implies weakness.

Me: Okay, This guy goes on to say, “Jesus didn’t lose everything, and that’s how he did so much.” I don’t know that he did lose all memories, though. He goes on to say, “Isn’t that what Jesus was saying when he said, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself’ and, ‘Turn the other cheek? Did he mean that we are suppose to give everything away and live a life of faith in God’s hand?”

Erik: “Live a life of faith in God’s hands.” Wow, that’s really turning it over, isn’t it?

Me: Yeah. When he says “lose everything,” is he talking about spiritual amnesia, or is it just –like loving your neighbor even though he’s mean to you, does that—

Erik saves me from my own stumbling.

Erik: I think Jesus did lose all of his boundaries.

Me: Ah!

(Light bulb moment)

Erik: Because He’s loving his neighbor just like he’s loving himself. So there’s obviously nothing between the two that’s telling him to behave a certain way.

Me: Okay.

Erik: And that is getting back to the core of loving.

Me: So losing everything, losing your boundaries, um—

(Pause)

Me: God, I don’t know what I was going to say. It was in my mind, but it’s gone now. I’m so rattled today. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because Laura just called and told me my dad is hallucinating and having a really hard time. These questions, for me—I don’t know. They’re not really questions, per se, so it’s really hard for me. It’s almost like he’s just making comments.

Erik: Yeah. He is. It’s partly because he just wants to be heard, which is fine. It gives a story for somebody else to read.

Me: That’s true.

Erik: He’s trying to take what we’re doing, which he’s obviously interested in if he’s even sharing them with us, and he’s putting his faith in religion in the story, and sometimes it’s hard to merge religion and spirituality. Spirituality holds you responsible, and religion says, “Turn your faith over to Me. I’ve got this for you.”

Me: Yeah.

Erik: That’s a different journey, man, but neither is wrong or right. It’s whatever is connecting to you on a deeper level to bring you that joy, that happiness, that boundless thing he was talking about that Jesus had. Whatever gives you that is the right answer, and you need to stick to it.

Me: That makes total sense. I got chills from that, which means I sense it as an absolute truth.

Erik was pretty deep on this one. I hope you got something from it! Have a great weekend, guys.