Although I expected a short, sweet, simple answer to a short, sweet, simple question, what Erik served up was anything but. Jamie and I were poleaxed. When we got confused, poor Erik got frustrated at times, but he persevered.
Instead of getting additional details about the spiritual nature of schizophrenia, we received a much broader lesson about life. In the end, although I sometimes found it confusing and had to digest it several times, the kernels of wisdom I found buried here are astonishing and have me bursting with pride for my sweet son.
Me: I have another question about schizophrenia.
Jamie: He made some really funny noises.
Me: Because there are spiritual aspects of it. Why? I know that Robert told me that they’re just across different dimensions and they have a hard time being grounded in one and that some of them can be mediums or are meant to be mediums. Can you tell me more?
Erik: I agree. It can often be a person who is between two worlds, and if we’re saying worlds, we’re really saying dimensions. And they can, at the same time, pick up multi-dimensional lifestyles and lives. That will really just break somebody’s personality down and just fuck ‘em up. It’s also—think if someone who can be multi-dimensional—many worlds—but still be in the earthly plane, and that would be your definition of people who could download information.
Jamie (giggling): He looks at me and goes, “It’s a fine line, isn’t it, Jamie?”
I laugh.
Jamie: It is!
Me: But why? Why?
Erik: Why do people have that and they can’t handle it like Jamie?
Me: Well, first of all why do they have it, and why can some people handle it and some people can’t?
Erik: Okay. But Mom, when we talk about it, schizophrenia, people are—
Jamie: Um, I just didn’t get what you said at all, Erik.
We both chuckle.
Jamie: He’s talking about—(to Erik) Is that judgment or measuring? (unintelligible whispering.) (To me) He’s comparing it to warts and I’m totally lost.
Me: I would be, too.
Jamie: Yeah, can you say it again, Erik? I’m so sorry.
Erik: When you talk about schizophrenia, it has a heavy content, and people think it’s very severe, so it’s huge, kind of like cancer. But if somebody had a wart and we go, “Why, why does she have the wart?” The wart just doesn’t seem like much, because it doesn’t affect the body with what we consider to be as extreme of an effect as schizophrenia. So, when we’re asking why does somebody have something, one is not greater than the other. I kind of would love to put it out there that people are only harping on what they consider to be the big shit when really it’s all big shit. Why can’t we treat everything equally first before we start cutting things up, deciding why we have it or why it’s there?
Me: I don’t know if I understand.
Jamie (to Erik): See, I don’t either. Sorry, Erik. Do it again.
Me: Dumb it down for us.
Jamie: He just like dropped his head like, “Argh.”
Erik: Well, you’re asking why do people get schizophrenia like they’re the victims, how sad for them.
Me: No, no. Why do they get it for spiritual reasons? Is it a lesson for them? Is it to teach others? Is it a spiritual mission for them?
Erik: But Mom, we could say yes to all of that for any topic.
Me: Well, that’s true.
Erik: Like, why does that person get burned on her face? Oh, because she’s here to teach us or this or that. Why are we even asking this anymore?
Me: Okay, okay.
Erik: Can’t we get beyond these tiny topics?
Me: I see.
Erik: It’s all big shit.
Me: I understand!
Jamie: I’m glad you got it, because I think I’m on the tail end of things.
Erik: So, stop breaking it down into topics, and just look at each thing that is happening to each person. Number one, what I said about each thing, each person, we’re all the same. We’re all interwoven the same whether people hate or love the idea; it’s the truth of the matter. It’s how we’re created. What each person is resonating with is just where they are. No one is being punished. God damn!
Jamie: He kind of just drops one arm.
Erik: Everybody just feels that—
Jamie: They are? Being punished?
Erik: Yeah, like life is hard for them; life doesn’t like them; they’re unlucky. This is the exact line of thinking that we need to reset and get rid of. This is what’s keeping us in this negative “I need to understand why it’s happening” mode. No you don’t! You need to look at the positives and get beyond it. Those are the answers you’re forgetting to look for. We don’t really need to know why. Did I choose this life with abusive parents and to be raped twice in an abusive marriage? Oh, because you did, and you’re in it so own up to it and now let’s look at how you’re going to get out of it and how you’re going to grow into a more deserving life.
Me: Yeah. Okay. What about schizophrenia? Is there a positive side to it, then?
Erik (chuckling): You almost had me there for a second! You were going to ask the same thing. God there are so many positive reasons for schizophrenia, and not just for the person who’s suffering inside the head. It’s for the parents; it’s for the family members. It’s for anyone who’s interacting with this flip-flop personality. It allows the person who’s going through it to not just live one life but multiple lives simultaneously. Ultimately, it’s a lesson of mono tasking—to be simple. And everything in their life is not simple. To the people around them, it’s a huge lesson in trust. You never feel like you can trust the person.
Jamie: He was talking about the chemical makeup of the person with schizophrenia and how they use more parts of their brain than a “normal” functioning person. So, it’s almost as if they’re advanced technologically speaking, but they just don’t know how to run it.
Erik: Their advanced brain came without instructions.
Me: Okay. Is there anyway to help them become grounded in one dimension?
Erik: You’d first have to find the personality that’s most dominant and cater to that personality as being the host. Then start weaving a very complicated—
Jamie (to Erik): What is that? Arch, ar..
Erik: You know, who’s in line: First, second, third…
Jamie: He’s saying something like ark or matriarchal.
Me: Oh, like matrix?
Jamie: Yes, matrix.
Erik: And then when another personality is coming through, then you adjust to meet their needs, to put that fire out so that they can go back to the original home base personality.
Me: Personality meaning the one that’s in different dimensions?
Erik: Yes, yes. That one just has to be so hand fed and hand cared for that it’s difficult to give general advice, but if people are going through something of this nature, we can do individual work, but to speak so boldly in general terms about the subject does it injustice.
Me: Well, can an energy healer help?
Erik: Yeah, acupuncture would really help with the physical triggers. In the next five years, they’re going to come out with this new kind of treatment.
Jamie: It’s kind of weird. He calls it brain burning.
Me: Okay.
Jamie: Like burning certain areas of the brain. Zapping it, lasering it. Killing the signal. Brain burning is his pet name for it.
Erik: It’s going to show help for people with schizophrenia and other kinds of mental diseases, because it’s going to take away the parts of the brain that triggers that does the harm.
Me: Oh, good.
