Kano’s Question
My name is Kano, I’m a 50 year old mother of 2 children, and I live in Jaarsveld, in the Netherlands.
My whole life I have been struggling with myself and the world. I was just recently, 2 months ago, diagnosed with ADHD. This after a life of not getting along in studies, jobs, being a wife, being a mother. In other words: I don’t succeed in “being myself”. I’m depressed most of the time and it’s becoming a more and more “downward going spiral”.
In my desperate search, I started back in the 80s, I also came into contact with the spiritual way of looking at things that happen. But despite all the information I got (about past lives) and the healing practises I did (meditation, family constellations and more), I can’t find the way out.
It feels like being in a prison. I can’t get in contact with my own spirit. Because of that I feel very lonely. When I am alone, I can’t figure out what to do, despite many interests. But contact with people is also very hard. It often feels as if people don’t believe me, don’t like me. But the truth of the matter is: I don’t like myself and I am disapprovingly about myself almost all the time.
It has of course great influence on my children. Not only because of what they see. But also because it influences the way I raise them.
My son, his name is J.L. is 15 years old. He is a very high sensitive soul, and a “very old soul” I think. His life has from the beginning been very difficult. He was born with Oesophageal atresia. He had an operation the next day and was a month in Hospital. It appeared to be one of the ailments from the VACTERL- syndrome. He also has a congenital abnormality at his thumbs. And it also affected his respiratory ability. At age 2 he had his second operation, at his stomach, because he had so much reflux his oesophagus was getting damaged again and again. When he was about 4 he had a very extreme pneumonia. At age 7 he had a hand operation. At age 9 another operation (hydrocele) had to be done. Because of his sensitivity I choose a Waldorf school (anthroposofycal). I felt, and still feel, he needs a lot of encouragement to be on earth. Because of his bad teacher, which should stay with him for 6 year, my husband and I decided to dive into a new adventure. There was a new school, based on the Sudbury valley school in your country. Children decides themselves what they want to learn. Partly it was very good for him, his confidence grew. But it didn’t work out. Last year he’s diagnosed with PDD NOS.
And so on and so on. Somehow I’m full with what happened to me. It feels like I’m not able to go on. Can you please ask Erik why I can’t get along with my life? Or in a more positive way, what can I do to change my life? Can he help me to give me information about the real meaning of it? And why it is so difficult with my children? Somehow I think it has to do with my father, his name was B.L. He passed away in November 1987, in Bergen op Zoom (the Netherlands), because of a hearth attack.
Kano
Channeling Transcript
Me: This next question comes from Kano. She’s 50 years old and lives in Jaarsveld in the Netherlands. She just feels like she’s been struggling with herself and the world her entire life. She was recently diagnosed with ADHD, this after a life of feeling like every role she played, she did so inadequately. She has trouble succeeding in being herself.
Erik: That is correct. It is correct. Her guardian angels—uh, she’s in a fantastic place right now cuz she’s finishing up a very long, very hard chapter of her life, and she’s moving into a new chapter where she’s finally going to get into her life’s work. All of the people she’s had in her life so far have been spiritual students of hers. That’s why she feels lonely. She does, doesn’t she?
Me: Oh, yeah, I guess she does! Did I already tell you that?
Erik (ignoring my question): She is here as a teacher and a healer, and so teachers are often, while they’re on the earthly plane, surrounded by students who have come here to do what they’re supposed to do. That’s why she feels like no one can see her for who and what she is, because they haven’t been able to! She’s correct!
Me: Okay.
Erik: So she’s surrounded by students, and she taught them everything she could have, not everything that they should have, because that’s up to the student, to learn what they—
(The phone line disconnects, because the electrical inspector cut off a circuit breaker as part of the final inspection for our remodeled kitchen. I dial Kim back, and she answers right away.)
Me: Dang, sorry about that. The line got disconnected!
Kim: Oh, okay, That’s fine. Erik?
Erik: Her angels disagree with the diagnosis of ADHD. They dramatically disagree with that! They say that sometimes people lump human beings, uh, they make a diagnosis like that when somebody is capable of juggling 500 balls in the air at one time. Kano is exactly where she needs to be at this time in her life, and what they recommend for her…
(pause)
Erik: She needs to write books. These are going to be nonfiction books about what people can be capable of based on what she’s capable of. She’ll find her way. She’s very bright.
Me: Okay, she also says her 15 year old son, J.L., is a very old soul, highly sensitive, born with all sorts of medical problems including esophageal atresia and other health problems. She wants to know why is she having such a hard time with her children? She thinks it has to do with her father, B. L. who died some years ago.
Erik: Okay, those are, uh, I would need a lot more time to get her all that information, how the father’s involved, if he’s involved.
Me: I know, I know.
Erik: I would need the names of the children, because she has a different relationship to each one, but in regards to J.L., they say that he deliberately chose her as a mother, of course. And J.L. planned on this being his last lifetime, so what he did, he planned on working through little loose ends of all the other issues he had. So up until the time he’s about 22, it’s gonna be balls to the walls for him. The issues are gonna hit him physically, emotionally, and spiritually, so it’s a matter of addressing each one, asking, when something happens, why did this happen? What am I supposed to learn? All of these things are meant to be learning experiences. So every time something goes on with him that seems out of the norm, Kano needs to sit down with him, and she needs to talk to his guardian angels and ask about it. That way, J.L. can learn as quickly as possible—he’s a fast learner—and then, that situation resolves itself, and they’re on to the next! So there’s about six more years of this, and she can make it so much simpler and easier if she channels for him.
Me: So after 22?
Erik: After 22, these issues are gonna stop bombarding him. He’ll have other issues, but it’ll be stuff he can easily handle, things that are predictable and not out of the norm like some of the things that have gone on with him in the past.
Me: Okay, good!
Erik: And she is to know that J.L. will not die before she does.
Kano’s Response
Hi Elisa and Erik,
It was such a big surprise to already find mail from you in the mailbox, when I came home after being away for the holidays. Thank you so much for asking Erik my questions. And please thank Erik to, I’m so grateful for the messages he had for J.L. and me. I can tell you it has helped me already.
What Erik mentioned about feeling lonely is so recognizable. Thinking about it now, while I’m writing you, makes me sad again. But I also notice that things slowly are changing. Yesterday evening I wrote down a question on paper, sat down and wrote down what came up. It feels like someone is “talking in me”, and it makes me feeling very peaceful inside. It feels like a start, although I’m not sure yet how to write books! But somehow I’m convinced it will work out!
When I sat down, I also invited guides, from J.L. and me, to make contact. I think “the writing down” is my way of connecting. The things Erik mentioned about J.L. make sense on a very deep level. When I became pregnant my husband, Peter, saw Light Beings around us. And just before the birth began J.L. had a message for us. He told us, in English not in Dutch, “Circle is my name”. For me it somehow has the meaning that something is coming to fulfillment.
I’m looking forward to the details of the channeling session. Its always so special how Erik put the message into words. I also have some catching up to do in reading the blog. I hope you are well? I send Erik and you love and hugs and many, many thanks again,
xo
Kano
Kano’s Response
Hey Elisa,
THANK YOU, SO MUCH!
It’s early in the morning here, 8.30 now. I went up early to look if the
transcript was in the mail and there it was!
Thank you so much again, and not to forget Kim and Erik of course!
It even got more and very helpful, and detailed information.
About Erik?
I have visits from him too. When I’m channelling I often address my
questions to him. And he helps me a lot. I don’t recognize his voice
from recordings, but I “feel” it’s definitely him.
And yesterday something special happened. I drove J.L. to a summercamp,
and while waiting inside for the beginning I looked at him. He was
looking a little worried and it made me sad.
Somehow I looked up, and there, under the ceiling was ……. a
dragonfly!
Immediately I heared the words inside me, “yes, I’m here, I will look
after him! And from that moment every now and then Erik pops up telling
me J.L. is allright.
It makes me feel so “taken cared of”. And it’s such a new experience
that I have to get used to it.
Also being a part of a community is kind of new. And I feel still a
little fear to come forward. That’s the reason I didn’t respond on the
weblog before. But today I want to make a start!
So thank you Elisa. You and Erik help me so much. Not only in “knowing”,
but also in “doing”! I love you!
XO
Kano
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