In previous channeling sessions, Erik has told me that we are meant to work together on several projects: this blog, some books, a TV series and a movie. I can’t fathom this, as my energy and motivation is as low as my spirits. How low? The Marianas trench looks like the Rocky Mountain ridge by comparison. Erik discusses this further with me in my May 13th channeling session:

Me: Erik, I know you say I’m supposed to write some books and screenplays about all this, but I just don’t know how I can do it. I‘ve written non-fiction books, but I haven’t had any experience with fiction and certainly not screenplays. I feel paralyzed, too. I can hardly find it within me to take in the mail; how can I move forward on this? I know it’s important for helping others like bereaved parents and teens who are depressed, but where do I find the strength and skill, Erik?

Erik: The first thing is a book. You’re going to write a book with me called something like Channeling Erik. It’ll include the channeled sessions with me. Should be a cinch. Fuckin easy.

Sounds weird coming from a guy that had trouble stringing two sentences together in school!

Me: Non-fiction?

Erik: Yes, exactly. True life. You’re going to do a couple of books like that. On might be called Conversations with Erik. Then you’re going to have someone come to you and wanna do a film. That’s what’s gonna happen now, Mom. We are going to do two books, and you’re going to continue with the blog. Many people will read them and learn from them. A lot of parents are going to understand your reluctance to believe that it’s really me cuz of what you can lose again.

Me: Yeah, sure.

Erik: And it’s not about trusting Kim; it’s about trusting yourself and trusting me. I’ve let you down, so I can understand why it’d be hard to trust me. As much a part of you that’s concerned about trusting me is you trusting yourself. A lot of parents are going to understand that, so it’s really important for you to write about those feelings of doubt. I think you should start the book with this issue. You’re going to have hesitations Mom, because you’re going to wonder whether you should write the books from the standpoint of you being a strong woman wanting to help others rather than a crying puddle of fear and doubt. But Mom, that’s what everybody’s going to be feeling. We have to write about that so people can relate!

Me: Oh, yeah, I don’t mind showing my weak moments at all! I’ve got more of those than moments of strength!

Erik: Yeah, Mom, you’re going to have “Terminator moments” when you’re making it through and life is good and then moments where you wish you were dead or that you died with me and you just don’t care., You don’t care about anything else. You need to write about all of that cuz that kind of stuff will be what people relate to.

Me: Been there already. My “Terminator” moments are rare. Lately, I’ve felt weak and incapable. How the Hell am I going to be able to write anything at all? I don’t even feel like starting!

Erik: I know, but you just have to force yourself, Mom. Once you get started, you won’t be able to stop. That’s how you’re wired. Remember when you told me you hated to vacuum because you didn’t like the first step of getting the vacuum cleaner out? You always told me that once it was out and plugged in the rest was easy. Same thing with your writing.

Ugh, now I feel really tired. The very thought of vacuuming…

I just received the recording of the latest channeling session with all of the Ask Erik submissions. It arrived a little late, but as soon as the long holiday is over, I’ll start transcribing it. I thank you all for being so patient.