As many of you know, the blog was hacked by some freaking asshole. I had to get my great team at Excelisys, a fantastic web support company, to fix it and make it much more protected in the future. Unfortunately, it cost me a small fortune. I’d love to stuff that bill up the hacker’s bunghole. 

Yesterday, we camped at Palo Duro Canyon State Park. It’s so beautiful. You kind of feel like you’re on another planet like Mars. It was 114 degrees but windy and dry so bearable. We hikes all over the place, doggies in tow, say road runners, cottontails, a cool lizard and pretty desert flora. During our hikes, I always smelled cat pee, so I assumed that was from mountain lions because we say plenty of tracks. The smell was so pervasive and strong that I thought, ‘Damn, there cats must be very territorial or they have a urinary tract infection.’ As we were packing up to go, I took my hat off in the camper and smelled the smell again. Nope, no big cats inside. I sniffed my hat and realized that’s where the smell was coming from! Apparently, my demented Blue Russian cat, Bluebell, pissed on it when it was lying on the counter at home. Sigh. And I was so excited to get whiffs of wildlife. 

Right now, we’re on our way to Cañon City near Pueblo, CO. Then in the morning, it’s off to Breckenridge where we’ll stay for 6 days before heading out. I’m glad to see it’s a very dog friendly town because it’s nice to take Bella and Scout to restaurants and sit outside. 

Here’s a gorgeous drawing from a blog member’s brother. His name is Maximillian. It’s so real, almost looks like a photograph!

Here’s the last part of Kim’s trance channeling!

Erik’s hands have been flying around the whole time.

Me: Boy, you sure do use your hands a lot, still! Oh my god, you use them a lot!

Erik: Yeah, try to tie me down. It ain’t gonna work, or I can’t talk.

Me: I know. I can tell! That’s always been the case.

Erik: It just feels good. It feels good to have hands. (He rubs them together.) It feels good to have a body for a while.

Me: Do you miss it?

Erik: I do. I do, Mom. I miss touch. There’s something about touch no matter what kind of touch it is. It brings a sense of realness to something, you know? Any encounter, any embrace with that touch where you stop and you hold—man that feels so good.

Me: Can you create that illusion for yourself?

Erik: Yeah, but it’s not the same. You don’t get that feeling of body against body. You can coexist and be next to each other, but you don’t get that, you know, that natural state of—let’s say you’re next to your partner, and you feel the warmth of their body and the touch of their soft skin. You don’t get those sensations. You can create them, but it’s still not the same without that touch.

Me: Are you saying there’s less realness where you are?

Erik: Well, I wouldn’t say less realness, but I guess it just amplifies the whole experience when you have a body and you touch someone. The experience is just so different. For intimacy, for example, when you’re intimate without a body, the experience is different. It’s so much more spiritual because there’s no physical body being a part of it. But when you’re in the body and you have intimacy, there’s that whole touch, feel aspect to it that’s not quite the same. It’s much harder to understand the difference between—the spiritual experience part of it, you don’t really need touch. You can still experience the same emotions, but the physical side of it, you have the touch. You have the body parts that come with it that can possibly elicit different emotions. So being in a body, having that touch or even just hugging somebody and feeling that embrace like a body against a body, that stop feeling when you hug somebody and they squeeze you, those are the feelings that are much harder to manifest in the spiritual side. It’s much more real when you do it physically.

Me: So, do you think you’ll ever want to come back into a body?

Erik: I will, but it will be a while.

Me: In my lifetime?

Erik: No, I want to be here for a long time to guide my family. I want to be here to welcome my family when they come here.

I get choked up again. How I long for that moment.

Erik: I want to wait and reincarnate with my family again.

Me: What do you want to be? Do you want to be my son again? (I rub my hands together.) Let’s start planning!

Erik: I want to be your son again. I want for my siblings and for my parents to have a whole new experience. Mom, I learned so much.

Me: Can it be an easier one, please. (choking up) No more tragedy.

Erik: I love you so much.

Me: Let’s do a breather one like a really happy, white picket fence, utopic family.

Erik: Happy-go-lucky.

Me: I mean, we don’t need to learn in every incarnation. What do you think? Can we do that?

Erik: Let’s do it. You got it, Mom.

I’m holding him to that!

Erik: I just want to see you happy. I want to see my family happy, and I want to stay here because I feel like for right now, being here I have so much more ability to travel and be everywhere with my family and see them and help. If I was in the physical, I’d be more limited as far as who I could be with and when and how.

Me: Yeah, and it’d be so much harder to help so many people. What would you want to do? What role would you like to play when you incarnate? Of course it’d probably have to do with helping people. What do you want to be when you grow up!

Erik: Probably a doctor, a psychiatrist. I want to counsel people. I want to help people. Oftentimes, people get stuck in these big problems and they forget to look at, “Why did it start in the first place?” I want to help them take all the layers of the onion and really find the core.

Me: Maybe by that time they’ll start using hallucinogens for guided spiritual journeys with psychiatrist. You’d be good at that! You could guide them in a spiritual journey through epiphanies.

Erik: There’s actually a lot of power there. If people weren’t so afraid to experiment with hallucinogens, we could learn a lot.

Me: I hear there are people doing it in California, but I’m not sure. A really controlled, safe setting and a person that guides you through your spiritual epiphanies and so on. That’s like one hour can replace years of regular therapy.

Erik: You’re right, Mom. But a lot of people don’t go through the appropriate measures. You have to make sure it’s a controlled setting or they might not have a good trip. So it can be really effective, but people have to get rid of their fears.

Me: Yeah, well, by the time you reincarnate, it’ll probably be okay. Anything else you want to say before you leave—me again?

At this point, I’m really sad.

Me: It’s kind of sad. You’re leaving a body again just like you left your body before. It makes me sad.

Erik: It’s okay because you know you still have me.

Me: I know.

Erik: You know you still have me, and I want my family to know—my family, my brother, my sisters, my dad—I’m still with you. I love you guys dearly, and I hope that you feel that. I want all the blog members to know how much I love you, and I want you to feel the same way about yourself. I want you all to love yourselves and support yourselves, too.

Me: Yeah. Okay.

Erik: Thanks for all you do, Mom.

Me: Well, thank you for all YOU do, and the radio show is tomorrow evening at 7:00 PM CT Thursday, so you guys, every Thursday, ask Erik questions.

Erik: It’s going to be awesome!

Me: I love you, sweetie.

Erik: I love you, Mom. Bye, Mom. I love you.

Me: Bye.

Erik leaves Kim’s body. Kim looks around, a little disoriented.

Me: Hey. Welcome back!

Kim (wiping her eyes): Hi!

Me: How do you feel?

Kim: Wow. I feel good, just a little bit shaky, but good. I feel a little dizzy, but…

Me: And your body? Are you in it all the way?

Kim: Yeah. Yeah, I feel good. I feel a little dizzy, but, just lightheaded but good. I don’t feel nauseated, so that’s the best part.

Me: It went really well. Super well.

Kim: Good! I’m happy to hear that. I’m game for anything you want to do, Elisa, in helping Erik get his message across to so many people. I’m happy to be a part of it.

Me: All of his mannerisms were there, you know, the things he used to do when he was alive. I’ve forgotten how those hands used to fly everywhere!

Kim laughs.

Me: That was cool to see.

Kim: Oh, goodness.

Me: It was hard to say goodbye to him because the last time, when he left his real body—not that yours is not a real body—it was horrible. And then he left your body, and I didn’t want him to go.

Kim: Yeah, I’m sure.

Me: But he’ll be back.

Kim: Yeah, and I’ll keep practicing. I feel really good. I’m surprised how it felt that time.

Me: That’s awesome, and I know that things are going to get easier and easier for you. I really thank you for having the courage to do that. I really do.

Kim: Absolutely. My pleasure. I hope that anybody who’s watching this video can learn from it, and hopefully what Erik shared is helpful for so many people.

Me: And know that on the tour, when we go to these cities, Kim is going to trance channel Erik, so that’s always fun, and Erik usually goes around and gives everybody a hug. It’s so freaking powerful. So awesome. Sometimes he sits in someone’s laugh or carries them around on his back. He does all sorts of funny things. Yeah, join us for the tour. You’ll see the cities and dates at the end of this video.

Kim: Yeah, it’ll be a lot of fun.

Me: Bye, Kim. Bye, Erik. I love you, Erik.

Erik: Bye, Mom. I love you.

One more thing: If you want to read my latest article (4 Mindful Tips During Grief) in Personal Growth, click HERE.