We got back from our wonderful trip to Ireland late last night. Everything went without a hitch until we got to Houston. There was a big-ass thunderstorm over the airport so we had to circle for 30 minutes to wait until the storm moved on. Unfortunately, it didn’t, so we had to divert to Austin before we ran out of fuel. Then we had to wait until a new crew came in to replace ours because they were about to surpass their time on duty limit. Then after a couple of hours, we flew to Houston and landed with no problem. I was so happy to see Bella! I had to wait until close to 11:00 PM to see Rune, though, because he was driving from Cresson, TX after a weekend of motorcycle racing. 

It was so wonderful spending daughter/mother time with Kristina. I remember when she was very little, I’d often tell her that one day she’s be all grown up, and we’d go to lunch as two ladies. She’d smile and say, “Two ladies.” Sure enough, those two ladies had many a lunch complete with a Guinness or two for 9 beautiful days. In June, she and Houston will be moving to North Carolina because he’s going to be doing a joint replacement fellowship at Duke and Kristina is going to start her job with a group as an anesthesiologist. They’ll probably start having a family soon after, so these daughter/mother trips are unlikely to happen again. I really want to do a trip with Annika, Michelle and Lukas in the future. Memories. 

Here’s the final vlog of our Ireland trip! 

I give Erik a choice of topics.

Kim: He just keeps kissing the screen.

Me: Aw! Oh, I gotta get the smudge marks off!

Kim: He wants to tackle uncertainty or feeling uncertain about things.

Me: Okay.

(Long pause)

Kim (laughing): He’s dancing.

Me: Everybody thinks, “Oh my god! Uncertainty is terrible!” It creates a lot of fear and such, but what’s your view on uncertainty?

Erik: First of all, you’re exactly right. People don’t like uncertainty because when they approach it, they usually default to fear. It’s a chain reaction because of control. People want control and have the need to control over people, situations, events—

Kim (laughing): He’s talking really fast!

Erik: We need to look at uncertainty as a huge window of opportunity. If you feel uncertainty about—

Kim: And he’s going to use me as an example!

Me: Don’t you love it when he does that?

Kim (laughing): Sure! Sometimes I share things I usually wouldn’t, but it’s all good. So right now I’m shifting my business, my little shop here, and I want to focus more on holistic wellness—

Me: Mm!

Kim: But I still want to have the merchandise, so I’m like, ‘Hm. How am I going to make both work? I’m uncertain.’ But I’m approaching that so I’m not scared.

Erik: When you approach it without fear, you’re embracing opportunity. So there’s a lot more opportunity to come with uncertainty when you approach it without fear, but when you approach it with fear, you shut down all those extra opportunities.

Me: Yeah.

Erik: So how do you get out of your fear? This is a tough pill to swallow for a lot of you. Being able to surrender and knowing that everything ahead of you is going to work out as it should no matter what. All of you that went through the hustle and bustle of the holidays, wondering, “Am I going to get this done? Am I going to get that done?” It all worked. It all still happened. There’s no reason to fall to fear and be certain as to whether it’s going to work or not or how it’s going to work. Again, that’s where the control comes in. So, surrender from needing control. Instead of needing control in those moments of uncertainty, listen to your heart and feel. This is to help a lot of you cope with the need for control.

Kim: That was a little side note.

Erik: Begin to feel, and that will help you make decisions. So you can be more decisive without the control part. “I’m going to make this decision; I’m going to make that decision.” Instead, just feel it out, and you’ll feel which way you should go, which way you shouldn’t go. Then you’ll be more decisive.

Me: That’s right. You say that. You say, “Feel first; think second.” First tap into your feelings and let that produce a thought instead of the opposite way.

Erik: Exactly, and then when you feel strongly, you’ll feel more decisive and that itself gives you power, but it’s a self-loving kind of power. Okay, getting back to uncertainty and surrendering.

He smiles and waves his arms in front and then above his head, fingers wiggling.

Erik: Surrender to the fact that there are a lot of opportunities around you all the time. Uncertainty can make you feel scared, and it can make you shut down, but again, that’s why you have to learn how to cope with the fear of it. Find ways to be more decisive so you don’t default to fear. In the moments when you’re more capable of surrendering—

Kim: He says this to me a lot, and he’s going to say it again.

Erik: Sometimes, if you don’t know what to do, don’t do anything at all. Just chill and feel. Feel it out first. Feel it out; feel it out, because if you connect to your heart—let’s say you have two possible outcomes—if you connect your heart to one and see it, role play it, and then you connect your heart to the other one, ask what feels better. That will help you make your decisions, and if people are rooted in being more decisive, they’ll be more successful. They won’t crumble to feeling uncertain. Certainty can come from ego. “When I need certainty, I need answers. I need control.” That’s a very egocentric, ego-based concept for the most part. Again, that’s a whole other lesson in detaching from ego in itself. Surrendering helps you do that. Surrender from the ego to connect more to how you feel. It’s either ego or love, people! You can’t reside in both.

Me: Well, you know when I look back on my life, there have so many times when I’ve felt uncertain, but here I am, still alive and well. Everything worked out, maybe not how I wanted it to, but it’s been acceptable. There was a time in Erik’s life when I was uncertain that he’d grow to become an old man. I was uncertain whether you’d take your life or not. That brought a lot of fear to me. It was out of my control, and here we are now.

Erik: The bigger message with all of this uncertainty, especially in my life, Mom, and in your life, even in those really dark, scary moments when you were uncertain if I was going to continue living or not, physically, there are divine orders that were already written. That’s that contract that we always talk about.

Me: Mm hm.

Erik: Some of you have the capability to surrender to that knowing that life is going to continue one way or another as it’s supposed to, as it’s in the contract. A lot of you can surrender to that and think, “Well, I don’t always have to be in control because my divine contract is already written, and I’m always going to have what I need to achieve that contract,” but it’s the human part, the emotion, that needs understanding, that needs control over thoughts, emotions and decisions. But sometimes you have to realize—

Kim (very unsettled): Yowzer! This is hard to say to you, as his mom, but he wants everybody to hear this, too:

Erik: Sometimes you have to understand that even a loving mother doesn’t have permission to change someone else’s journey. (He points up.) That’s only up to God Source. As hard as that is for you guys to hear, know that you’re here for your journey; you’re here for your experience. (Putting his right hand out to the right) Here’s destiny. You’re going to achieve that destiny no matter what, but then you’re given that wild card, and that wild card is free will to change the colors of the path along the way, but ultimately, you’re never given permission to change somebody’s journey. If you’re uncertain how something is going to play out or what you should or should not do to help someone, follow your heart first. Feel what your heart tells you to do, and then know that sometimes that’s all you can do.

Me: Well, I tried everything I could, and nothing seemed to work, but on the other hand, look at what’s happened with this whole Channeling Erik thing. That tragedy has turned into a way that you, Erik, are able to help so many people. So I guess that was the opportunity in this whole, horrible tragedy.

Erik: Mom, I feel like I have a bigger voice than I ever could have in my human life.

Kim (pointing at me): And he’s thanking you for that. He’s blowing you kisses.

Erik: I owe a lot of that to you.

Me: I’d do anything for you. So, anything else on uncertainty?

Erik: Just know that it comes from ego. Needing certainty comes from ego, so surrender to life. Let life happen. It would be so much more enjoyable if you do.

Me: What a great point to end this session. Thank you so much.

Erik: Thank you, Mom. I love you.

God how I love him, too.