Kylie’s Questions
Dear Elisa,
I am going thru some tough times right now and I am not sure what I am supposed to be doing (or not doing) The last 4 yrs have been awful. I was diagnosed with bipolar. I am 44 yrs old. I have 4 kids, all boys. I’ve been divorced for 13 yrs. I’m sorry this story is so fragmented, its so confusing and sad I cannot put it in perspective. Since my BP diagnoses my “ex” has turned my kids against me claiming I am crazy. I feel crazy. I’ve suffered from depression most of my life and with bouts of suicidal ideation. Since the loss of my children its been worse. I tried my best to be a good parent. I came from a neglectful home (alcoholic father and horrible mother) I thought I had gotten away from that when I married my ex, but all he wanted was someone to birth his children and be submissive. I thought i was doing the right thing by ending the marriage so my boys didn’t grow up thinking that is how you treat women, instead he took custody from me and has spent the last 13 yrs telling them I am a horrible person.
I am at my wits end with life. I’m a good person but yet life has shown me otherwise. I don’t understand. I know you are busy and if this is not the right place to contact you I completely understand.
Thanks for listening.
Kylie
Channeling Transcript
Me: Okay, Erik, Kylie needs your help here. She’s 44 years old and has bipolar disorder. She has four boys, has been divorced for 13 years, and uh, let’s see. I don’t see where she lives, but… Um, her ex-husband has pretty much turned her kids against her since her diagnosis. Now, he has custody of the kids.
Jamie: She’s on medication for the bipolar?
Me: I don’t know. And I’m not sure what questions she has. Maybe just some comforting advice or direction would help.
Jamie: I keep seeing multiple pills, like 2 or 3.
Me: Erik, you know how it is to be in that situation, of course, so I hope you can help her.
Erik: Amen! As long as she can take the medicine, she can stay more centered, but she’s always going to have moments of anxiety and out-of-body.
Me: Okay.
Erik: Look, the best way to go against the husband’s deceit is not verbally. DO NOT DO IT VERBALLY! Tell her to keep a log of how she feels and how she loves her children, kinda in a journal, you know?
Me: Yes, I understand.
Erik: And she will know when the moment is right. It might be a birthday; it might be Christmas or another holiday, when you cam give the kid the journal to read.
Me: Oh! Great idea!
Erik: So it’s not about keeping up daily connections or even weekly or monthly ones right now. Tell her to let it go, let it go, because she can’t win. If she fights just a small fight all the time, it really doesn’t prove anything.
Me: Yep. Yep.
Erik: And she can only do a small fight against this guy. He’s a real jerk! Total asshole. So I’d tell her to pull back, rescue herself, write these things, because writing words of love will also help to heal her. And I beg her, I beg her to take the time with these journals and take it seriously! So when she hands it over to them, it’s an explanation of months of what she’s been going through: her feelings of torment, of wanting peace and her story, plus the way she feels about each of them.
Me: Uh, huh. Yeah!
Erik: But she needs to write about how the situation has made her feel instead of criticism the dad. She doesn’t want this to look lie an argument like a closing case in a courtroom. It’s just, “This is how I feel. This is my truth.” No one knows somebody better than their own self.
Me: Any other advice for her, Baby?
Erik: Mom, be sure to tell her that she’s beautiful inside and out.
Me: Oh, I will!
Erik: Okay.
Me: Oh, yeah, and what was the purpose of her having—
Erik: The marriage?
Me: Well, no, or yes, I guess, but also the bipolar disorder. Yeah, maybe both.
Erik: The purpose of the disease is to help her truly connect with how she’s feeling. Because without that, she would just be the quiet mind and then the purpose of the marriage was just to get the children. The children are the ones going through the lessons.
Me: Oh, the kids are going through it?
Erik: Uh huh. The parents are just playing the roles, the negative roles. They each have negative attributes, so they’re the ones taking the hit and the kids are the ones learning the lessons.
Me: So are you saying the guy is not truly a jerk, that he’s just playing the role of the jerk for the benefit of the kids and their growth?
Erik: Yep. Correct.
Since her initial email. I have yet to have any response from Kylie, which is not her real name. I did a search just now and found her obituary. She died September 12th. Why oh why didn’t I get the word for word transcript to her sooner? Maybe she would have survived. I’m devastated. My heart is ripped in two once again. Please, Dear Erik, find her and help her. Tell her I’m so sorry I couldn’t save her. This is a very sad day.
