Before we begin with the next segment of my session with psychic medium, Felix Lerma, I’d like to make an announcement. Yesterday, I had a very short session with Kim O’Neill,, and I used that opportunity to ask some of the questions readers submitted through the “Ask Erik” page. I will post those transcripts soon. Until then, know that Erik’s responses were jaw-dropping. Prepare to be amazed! That said, let’s continue with Felix.

Your son is being funny with me. He’s acting like my leg is a drum. He’s drumming on my leg.

He’s such a jokester. Always has been.

Did he like to play around with drums?

Yes, and he liked to play pranks on people. When he wasn’t in his dark periods, he had a charming mischievous grin. He loved all sorts of musical instruments. He’s been begging me for years to buy a drum set for the family, but his father, Rune, vetoed that because he has a very low tolerance for noise. Anyway, Erik would take up all sorts of musical instruments and try to learn to play them. He dabbled with a violin, the piano, a harmonica, as well as acoustic, bass, electric and twelve string guitars. You name it, he’d play it. So it doesn’t surprise me that he’s taking up your leg as a new musical endeavor.

He keeps showing me October.

He died in October.

That’s his way of saying, “My birth into the spirit was in October.” He’s showing me the 21st.

Well his actual birthday was on September 21st. Can you ask him if he’ll wait for me?

What do you mean, will he reincarnate before you pass?

Yeah.

You have to understand, there’s no such thing as time there; so of course he’ll be there for you when you cross.

Oh good. Good.

No, he can be experiencing different realities at the same time, but the truth of the matter is he’s going to be there when you cross over. You’re not going over any time soon, but the way. You still have time here. He wants you to know that.

Okay.

Why is he showing someone planting something in the back yard? Did someone plant a tree for him?

Oh, wow! Yeah, we planted an orange tree!

I see him digging and planting something and saying “thank you.”

Yeah, we planted the orange tree for him after he died.

Yeah and he’s saying, “Tell Mama ‘thank you.'”

Mmm, that’s sweet. Does he have any regrets? Does he miss being on the earthly plane at all, or is he totally happy?

Felix laughs really hard here. He’s TOTALLY happy. Let me tell you something, just because he doesn’t miss being on the earthly plane doesn’t mean he doesn’t miss you.

Oh no! I know that! I just want him to be happy.

He is happy.

And I want him to forgive himself, because I feel like he’s still struggling with that. He knows there’s nothing to forgive on my side. After all, he did what he did to end his misery. I just care about his happiness. It doesn’t mean I’m not going to be sad and cry and grieve still, but I just want to make sure he forgives himself.

Absolutely. He’s with the spirit. He is home where he belongs. He wants you to know he’s at peace. It’s so important that you know that. He’s home. He’s exactly where he needs to be. His between-lives contract, his destiny for spiritual growth was fulfilled.

Oh, that’s wonderful. Does he have any messages for anyone in the family?

Hold on one second. Let me ask. He’s referring to his dad. He wants to say hello to his dad.

Okay.

It’s important to let his dad know that he loves him very much. I feel as if they did things together, but your husband felt like he lost his son a while back.

Okay, yeah. They butted heads a lot.

Like he lost connection to him. He says, “I didn’t. I’m still connected to Dad.” Does your husband work outside?

No, he’s a stockbroker, but he works outside on his motorcycles.

No, he’s showing me someone doing landscaping as work.

No.

Okay, who’s the person who works in landscaping?

Oh! That’s his brother-in-law, Shane.

He’s saying he needs to start his own business.

Wow, okay. He’s been talking about that actually. Does he have any messages for any of his siblings at all?

He’s showing me he has one brother. Does he have two sisters?

He has three.

He’s showing me one brother but multiple sisters, I can’t tell how many. I just know it’s more than one.

Uh huh.

Who’s Antonio?

My dad’s middle name is Antonio, Jose Antonio. Hs sister’s name is Annika? Could it be that?

No, no. This is interesting. He’s saying ‘hello’ to his grandpa. Is he close to his grandpa? He keeps talking about grandpa.

Well he always looked up to him, because my dad was a big adventurer in his youth and is still extremely active at almost 90. In the past, he’s had many of the same hobbies Erik loved. They were so similar, because they both loved to try different sports and hobbies. When they grew tired of one experience, they’d quickly move on to the next one. My dad also gave Erik a lot of his nice hand-tailored suits. Erik was so proud of those suits; he’s buried in one of them.

He wants you to know that he really loves his grandpa. It’s really important to say that.

My father doesn’t believe in an afterlife, but the day after Erik died, he called me, almost panicking, to tell me that Erik visited him. (See the previous entry, “Erik’s First Visits.”)

He wanted to let him know that he’s okay. He’s still alive.

Does he have any messages for his older sister, Kristina?

Kristina. He’s poking fun at her, like making fun of her in a fun way. That’s what he’d do. He’s teasing her to let her know she has to have her makeup perfect, and she has to have her hair perfect. He’s acknowledging this. Does she color her hair?

Yes, she highlights it. She drives very far away just to get highlights from one particular woman, so it’s very important to her.

Your son is laughing and saying, “She’s a girlie girl.  She likes dressing nicely.”

He has her pegged perfectly. Erik loved to pull Kristina’s chain all the time to her great annoyance. Plus, she is very much into clothes, makeup, hair and fashion in general, more than any of his other sisters.

He says tell her she needs to finish school.

Ooh, wow! Okay.

Do you understand that?

YES!

He says, “Tell her she needs to finish school, Felix.”

Yeah, because after he died, it stressed her out a lot. She’s in medical school and didn’t really have time to grieve over his death. She’s lost much of her motivation, and recently she’s intimated that she doesn’t want to continue.

Well, he says, “You tell her she’s gotta finish school!” It’s very important to him that she continue. (The way Felix mimics Erik’s voice is much like that of a parent wagging a finger in the face of a child, stern but lovingly.)

He says, “Don’t quit on me. Don’t quit.” I feel like that’s a special announcement there. Now, his other sister?

Michelle.

I’m hearing something about boyfriends. How old is Michelle?

Michelle is the one with Shane, the landscaper. She’s 23. She has a little girl.

Okay, no, I’m supposed to talk about a younger sister now. Who’s the younger one? Is her name Annika?

Yes.

Oh hold on, he doesn’t want to skip. He’s saying, “Hold on. Hold on.” So I have to talk about Michelle. She needs to get into working with kids for some reason. She’s going to work with children. I feel it really strongly.

Okay. Any private messages for her? They were sort of cohorts in crime.

Oh, I know! All right, Erik, come on, I need…He’s saying “Felix don’t get TIRED on me!” That’s what he’s saying to me. Your son is SO funny. Let me tell you, he’s quite the character!

Oh, yeah, he’s something else!

He says, “She doesn’t need to lose weight. I love her the way she is.”

I found this hilarious, because they are both very skinny and would tease each other about that. Every once in a while, Michelle would comment about her flabby thighs, (a complete delusion) and Erik got a big kick out of that.

He used to scare her. Like Halloween time; he loved Halloween. He keeps referring to this Halloween mask he used to scare her…

Okay, I’ll have to find out…

But in a funny way.

(Later, I asked Michelle about this, and she said he used to scare her with a particularly horrid looking mask all the time. Also, he enjoyed springing up from behind the kitchen cabinets, shouting “Raaaahhhh!” when she walked into the house from the garage. He reveled in her fright as well as her annoyance. After being startled out of her wits, she’d say, “Fuck you, Erik!” and he would just laugh and laugh. Then he’d say, in an endeared voice, “Meeeechelle, so cuuuttttee!”)

He says, “Please tell her I’m sorry. Tell her I’m sorry. I’m sorry for what happened at the end. I pushed her away, Felix.”

Oh, yeah. (There was a particularly sad event I knew he was referring to that occurred several months before his death. The details must remain private, however. Since that time, Michelle and Erik stopped speaking to each other. Resentments on both sides were too great. In retrospect, Michelle regrets their broken bond and has struggled with the guilt that often haunts her.)

He says, “I pushed her away. Let her know that I still love her.”

Anything else for Michelle, or should we go on to Annika or Lukas?

I’m asking him. He’s saying, “Michelle’s heart hurts.” You know, her heart aches.

Aw. Yeah. This comment and the heavy truth accompanying it makes me feel so sad.

Okay, Annika. I need to move to Annika. I feel like he wants to talk about boy issues. She’s having boy issues, like she’s interested in boys.

Uh huh.

He’s showing me the name David.

Does your son joke about being in a gang?

Uh, well, Lukas and him used to have a private joke. He’d say, “Gangsta, gangsta” to him.

Um, coffeemaker? I have no idea what he’s showing me.

Who is this about?

Lukas.

Okay.

He wants to tell Lukas, “Nice coffeemaker!”

Yeah, because Lukas has converted his room into a little bachelor pad recently with an old min-fridge and coffeemaker.

He’s saying “I like the coffeemaker,” like he’s just being funny with him. Like he’s saying “Oh, he’s such a grown-up now,” like teasing him in that way. Did he spell his name with a “k”?

Yes.

Who’s from near Brownsville?

That must be Maria. She’s from a place just a few miles from Brownsville. She took care of him since he was 16 months old. She still works for us once a week. She was alone in the house when he killed himself and was the first one to find him.

Can you please give her a big hug from him?

Absolutely, I will!

He says, “Tell her ‘thank you, and I loves her very much.’ Tell her, ‘I’m sorry.'”  She’s really important to him.

Yeah. They were very close. They teased each other a lot.

Okay, that’s it for today. The next entry will be the remainder of my session with Felix, then I’ll begin Erik’s responses to the “Ask Erik” questions. As always, thanks for letting me share.