Today is one of worst days of the year. No, it’s THE worst. Six years ago, in just a couple of hours from now, Erik put a bullet through his brain, ending his life and, in a way, ending my life as I knew it. Yes, much good has come from this tragedy, but, as many of you guys who have read his book can attest, it was just that. A tragedy. Every year around 1:00 PM on this date, my heart races and the distraught little broken women trapped inside my heart screams. The PTSD from seeing him dead and maimed takes over and I plunge into a darkness. I just want to scramble to some safe place and hide until the pain is over. Sure, this horror lasts less and less as each year passes, but it’s just as intense, just as painful. Unlike 6 years ago, I know that Erik still exists and that his physical body is the only thing that has died, so that helps. Still, I miss the hugs and kisses. Please pray for my family and me if you can. 

On a lighter note, be sure you join me tomorrow from 5:00 PM-6:00 PM CT on Energy Awareness with T Love. Medium (and Erik’s first voice from the other side,) Kim O’Neill, will be channeling Erik for us, so be prepared for fun and surprises. Listen HERE for the show. 

One last announcement, in order to accommodate the most number of people, we’ve changed the Houston local Channeling Erik get-together to Saturday, October 24th at 2:00 PM at Jason’s Deli on the Katy Freeway (I-10.) Email me if you can come! emedhus@gmail.com.

Over the years, many of you have educated me about the theory that the government laves the skies with chemicals that alter our minds, possibly to control the masses. It’s a little on the fringe, but I couldn’t resist asking Erik about it.

Me: A lot of people want to know about chemtrails and HARPP. I can’t remember what HARPP stands for, but they think the government has these airplanes that emit these chemicals to control us, and maybe one of them is barium or whatever.

Heather (shaking her head): He’s already shaking his head.

Erik: No. No.

Me: None of that’s true?

Erik: Some people have way too much time on their hands.

Me: Well where did they come up with that? That thought has to come from somewhere!

Erik: It comes from anxiety and the fear of a loss of control. They want to focus on the government being the one who robs the control, and yeah, in a way, the government is controlling, but they’re not emitting dangerous toxins.

Me: How did people come up with that particular control device in their imagination?

Erik: Humans are very imaginative.

Heather: He’s showing me an image of a person looking up at the sky at the trails and thinking, “What is that? How is that happening?” So they’re brainstorming ideas in their head, they think of one and go, “That’s it!”

Erik: They focus too much on the negative. Have you ever thought that maybe they’re doing something to help? Have you ever thought they might be trying to control global warming?

Heather: Is that what’s happening?

(Pause)

Heather: Are you going to answer this, or are you just going to be…

Erik: Yes and no. Maybe.

Heather (pleading): Give me an answer.

Me: Are we talking about contrails, still?

Erik: Yeah.

Heather: So why are they doing it?

Erik: To control the damage that’s been done.

Me: So they are putting out something?

Erik: Yes.

Me: They’re not just regular contrail from the condensation of cool air?

Heather: He’s showing me an image again. He’s showing me the sun, and the solar flares are really hitting the earth making it hotter causing shit to happen. He says, “shit.”

Erik: The stuff in the contrails is causing it to be not as drastic or to not harm us as much as it could.

Me: Of course airplanes emit warm vapor, and when it hits the cold air, it condenses to form a cloud. It’s not just that. I mean, that obviously exists. That’s physics.

Erik: Yeah.

Me: But there are actually contrails where they’re emitting stuff to help us?

Erik: Yes.

Me: What is it?

Erik: It’s some kind of chemical—

Heather: No shit!

Heather laughs.

Me: Erik, you have met your match!

Heather (laughing): Yeah, I know. He has! I love it! He shows me images of the military with these rectangular packages that they put at the end of the plane. There’s some kind of bag in it, but he’s not telling me what it is.

Erik: It’s a chemical.

Heather: What is it?

Erik: It’s something they created. It’s mostly water to help cool it down.

Heather: Dry ice? That doesn’t sound right.

Erik: There’s some dry ice, but it’s mostly water vapor. They add something to create a blockage against the waves that come through [the solar flares] so they don’t burn us.

Me: What additive do they put in?

Heather: He doesn’t know what to call it. It just keeps showing me images. That’s what he does when he doesn’t have the words for it.

Me: Okay. What about barium? Somebody keeps mentioning barium in these chemtrails. Is that being used?

Heather: He’s showing me the ocean with oil on it. (To Erik) I think that’s a different—

(Pause)

Heather: He’s yelling at me.

Erik: That’s not a different topic, Heather.

Heather: Damn! Well, now he’s switched onto a different subject.

Erik: They’re spraying things in the ocean to get rid of oil from the oil spills, but it’s really not helping. It’s just covering it up. It’s making the oil sink, building this bubble. There are people swimming in it, fish that are dying—

Me: Oh no! Do they realize that they’re doing this?

Erik: Yes, they do, but they don’t want to spend the money to fix it. They feel like it’s too much to change.

Heather: He’s showing me people coughing and getting sick from it. Some are getting red rashes on their chest.

Me: What can we do?

Erik: Over time, as people are becoming more awakened, they’re going to realize that this is happening. It’ll become more known. People will be upset, naturally. They’ll start to take more responsibility for the planet. You see it now slowly getting there.

Me: Yeah.

Erik: People are becoming more conscious about it. It’s just a matter of time. Let things take their course. Let activists take a stand and make a big enough uproar about it.

Me: But what is the solution? What do they need to do, spray something different, take nets and gather it up? I don’t know!

Erik: First you need to stop drilling in the ocean. Second, you need to use a different chemical.

Heather: He’s showing it to me. It’s a different color than the one they’re already spraying. It’s more of a clear, and instead of making the oil sink, it’ll cause it to go into bubbles, and it’ll eventually make the oil come up. The bubbles will make it come back up. What are they doing? I see like this—they’re not really like nets—it’s like they’re picking up the water and using this filter that still leaves the water behind but it picks up the oil bubbles.

Erik: The chemical makes the oil denser, so it’s easier to pick up.

Me: Oh, I see.

Erik: Over time, people are going to do that. There’s already somebody who’s working on that.

Me: Oh, good. Awesome.

Heather (smiling): Happy ending!

Me: Yes, that is a happy ending, and we’re going to close off now! Did you have a good time Erik?

Erik: Oh, yes.

Me: Picking on poor Heather?

Erik: I’ll stop picking on her.

Heather: Oh, now you stop.

Me: Yeah, until next time!

Heather (laughing): Oh god!

Me: Where do you live, Heather?

Heather: I live in Fresno, California.

Erik: METH!

Heather: Stop!

Me: What, is that the meth capital of the world?

Heather: Yeah.

Me: Uh oh.

Heather: It’s not so dangerous. Just don’t go outside, and you’ll be fine.

Here’s the Wikipedia link on Chemtrails.

I love you, Erik. Please come by for a hug.