And now for the anxiously awaited continuation of the channeling session with world renown psychic medium, Felix Lee Lerma. Let’s jump right it. Again, as before, Felix’s comments will be in italics and mine will be in plain text. Enjoy.
Who’s Mickey or Mike?
Mike? Mike is…I met two friends who also had children who passed. Ever since I met one of them, Michael’s Mom, Rebecca, Erik and he seemed to have become buddies. I feel that when Erik comes to me…
Yeah.
…that he brings Mike with him. (See the entry, “Erik Meets Michael and Kevin” posted March 12)
Okay, it’s really important that you know that…so it looks like Michael is someone who has also passed, right?
Yeah.
Because he’s acknowledging that he is with Mikey. They are together.
Okay.
They had very similar issues.
Okay, yes. (Like Erik, Michael suffered from Bipolar Disorder and committed suicide by a gunshot wound to the head.)
Can you please let Michael’s parents know that he came through along with your son?
Oh, of course I will! Of course I will!
Okay, it’s really important. He’s giving you a hug. He’s kissing you on the forehead.
Who is, Mike or Erik?
Your son, Erik.
Oh, okay, good! Aw, how sweet!
Hold on one second.
(Pause)
Okay I’m just talking to Erik. I’m saying, “Erik, I need you to come through strong. You have to be strong for your mom here so I can channel you.”
Mmm. Okay. (Erik’s transmission seems to weaken when he’s talking about a difficult or sensitive subject.)
Did he say something to you…did he get upset about his car?
No, I don’t think so.
Did he wreck his car? Because I’m hearing that he wrecked his car a lot.
Oh yeah, he had lot’s of little fender benders in it, but that’s it. (His truck actually looks like it had been used as a bumper car in a county fair, but that’s an entirely different story.)
Cuz he’s making me feel like he was careless with it.
Okay.
Do you still have the car?
You’re breaking up. I can’t hear you.
Okay, Elisa, Elisa, he’s talking about his car. Who has his car?
It’s still there in the driveway…
Yeah.
…his truck. We haven’t done anything with it.
Okay. Did you find some things in his truck? Did you find something inside there?
Gosh, I don’t…it’s a mess in there. Um, oh yeah! We…I did, Oh yeah! I did find some receipts from when he sold a bunch of my husband’s guns. A few days before his death, he broke into the gun cabinet and sold several guns so he could buy a hunting rifle that he really, really wanted. He loved guns so much.(How ironic. Sadly, fussing with him about those receipts was the last conversation I had with him. Although I didn’t yell or punish him at that point, I am still wracked with guilt, wondering if uncovering his transgression was the last straw for him.)
He’s apologizing again.
Okay.
The reason why he’s bringing this up is because he wants to apologize to your husband.
Aw, okay.
It’s really important that you acknowledge this.
Okay, yeah. Aw, I will do that, Sweetie.
He’s saying, “I wasn’t able to convey myself to Pappa in the proper way.”
Yeah, that’s true. Of course. (I remember the day my husband discovered that Erik had broken into the gun cabinet, Erik just smiled his nervous, cat-who-swallowed-the-canary smile. No remorse. No “I’m sorry.” This, of course, infuriated my husband even more. Looking back, I think Erik just didn’t know what to say. Like he admitted through Felix, he couldn’t convey himself.)
He just keeps talking about this. Now, why is April important to him?
Hmm, I don’t know, unless it’s about my birthday.
Oh, your birthday is in April. That would be his way to acknowledge…he just keeps saying, “April is important to me cuz of Mom.”
Aw, thanks, Erik!
Now, why is he showing me “21” besides it being the number of your birth date?
Well, uh, he was 20 going on 21.
He’s saying he didn’t make it to 21. I feel like he’s telling me, “I didn’t get to see 21.” (I can tell by his tone of voice, Felix knew there was more to it than that.)
Or we did both have the same date. His birthday was September 21st.
Ah! Thank you! (Felix exclaimed this in a “Eureka moment” fashion.)
And also our initials were the same, E.R.M. Erik Rune Medhus. Elisa Ribelles Medhus.
Yes, so that number 21 is important because, for one, he didn’t get to live to be that age and that’s the number…like he was waiting for that number actually. Second, he’s acknowledging that this number symbolizes the special connection you two had. You know what, your son was an old soul, Elisa!
Yes, I believe so, because he never ever said anything bad about anybody. He was a very gentle, kind spirit. So, yes, I believe that.
Absolutely. He wants you to know that he loves you. He just keeps saying, “It’s important for Mom to know how much I care and love everyone there. This was my role in life. This was supposed to be, Felix, as hard it is…”
Was it his destiny or was it just a…
It was exactly the way it was supposed to be. You know, it was almost as if something drove him to it.
Yeah, what?
It was internal. It was not something that can be described as, like…it’s not comprehensible to us, because it’s not like a spirit told him to do it. But I feel like he just knew he could not be here anymore. He could not do it. It was too hard for him to stay here.
Yeah. (I say this with tears in my eyes and pain in my heart.)
He was very frustrated. He wanted to be normal like everyone else…
Yeah.
…even though he was a very special kid, he knew that what he was doing was not the right way to be.
Yeah, exactly. (Erik often broke the rules and was so remorseful afterwards, but it’s almost like he didn’t know how to stop himself. Like Felix said, he knew what he was doing was wrong. This was always a painfully difficult conundrum for Erik.)
Do you know what I mean? He was aware of it. He was aware that he was hurting you by not always doing what was right.
Was he here to teach us something through all this?
Well let me say this to you. It’s not like you learned a lesson from this. It’s not like that kind of teaching.
Uh huh.
It’s like he came into this life with a specific purpose, and he fulfilled his purpose; he fulfilled his destiny and had to return home. That’s the best way I can describe it to you.
Well what was his purpose?
His purpose cannot be summed up in a statement, a sentence or even a paragraph. His purpose is on a much broader scale, a perspective that has to do with everyone that was ever a part of his life. So, in other words, he came, not for himself, but for other people. He came to bring love into the world, and then it was just too much and too overwhelming for him. He was a very sensitive guy.
Oh, yeah.
Do you know what I mean?
Oh, sure. Absolutely I do! (Of all my children, he was the most emotionally vulnerable.)
He wants you to know he likes the photographs you have set up on the fireplace mantle. And he’s talking about you guys making a photo album of him.
Yes we do. (It’s almost like a mini-alter on the mantle. And we have four photo albums with pictures of him at variously ages.)
Who’s Matthew, or Matt?
Matt is a good friend of his. Matt Fugate.
Yeah, he wants to give a shout out to Matt. “Say hello to Matt,” he’s saying.
Okay, I will.
He’s playing video games. Your son is showing me a bunch of video games. He loves to play X-Box. There’s something’s important about playing video games.
Okay, alright. (I laugh as I say this, because Erik used to love playing Halo, Grand Theft Auto, Ghost Recon and other action games on his X-Box. Afterwards, I wondered if Erik was trying to tell me that he sold his X-Box to Matt in order to buy the gun. We haven’t been able to find it or any of his games anywhere. I emailed Matt today and will revise this entry with that information if it turns out to be the case.)
I’m asking him what else he wants to show me. Who in the family has diabetes?
My sister, Teri, and my deceased sister, Denise.
He’s talking about someone who has passed that had issues with diabetes. That would be your son’s way to bring through his aunt. I feel like your sister wants to come through.
Okay.
Did you guys butt heads a lot?
Oh, yeah! (Denise was very stubborn and often irritating. I loved her dearly, but when she became too ill to care for herself, she lived with our family. Taking care of her, as well as my five children and medical practice, was a full time job. Naturally, tempers often flared when our stress levels rose.)
She’s laughing, saying that your guys were very different…opposites.
I chuckle in acknowledgment.
She’s saying, “I’m still right.” She’s kind of laughing at you in a fun way. She wants you to know she’s got the last word. She always had to have the last word, you know that?
Yeah. (This was one of her annoying qualities. She had more wonderful traits than irritating ones, though. That, and the fact that I had just as many faults as she did, made our relationship work beautifully.)
She says, “Tell her I said hello, Felix and a big hug to her. Tell her I’m with Erik.” She’s calling him “Little E.”
Oh! That’s great! (This nickname is typical of Denise’s corniness. She had nicknames for each of my kids. I miss the cornball that she was.)
Did she pass before him? She’s showing me she did.
Yes.
Because she’s saying she was there before Erik and was the first to meet him after he crossed over.
This was also confirmed by Kim O’Neill in an earlier post, “Death, Continued.”
I’m glad Denise was there to greet Erik after he died and that she’s his main cohort in crime in Heaven. Those two have a great deal in common. They’re both sweet and gentle souls who were sorely misunderstood. While on the earthly plane, they were both underachievers who could never seem to get their lives “on track.” They were both crippled by their illness, taking their own lives as a result. And most important, they were deeply loved by many. Unfortunately, while they were alive, Denise and Erik failed to see just how loved they were. Surely they know now.
