This past weekend was a tough one. I buried Erik four years ago Saturday. I miss him a lot and I’m still feeling down in the dumps today. I hate this time of year with his birthday the end of September, his death the first part of October and his burial mid-October. Fall used to be my favorite season. Not any more.
Me: Okay, here’s another one: I’ve heard Erik and other spirits says that “accidents” can happen where someone can die at an unplanned time, not a planned exit point. Can someone also contract a disease such as cancer that was not in one’s life blueprint? Like, what if you were designing a life without too many planned details, and you plan to live to a hundred, but when you got in, you found that you loved seafood and ate it every day and had a slightly high mercury exposure not anticipated in your plan. Could you get cancer at an early age and die from that?
Jamie (laughing): Erik shouts out, “Guess who loves seafood!”
I laugh.
Jamie: Obviously this blog member.
Me: Exactly.
Erik: Yeah. Yeah, you can totally. It’s so funny. You know, in humans, we kind of focus on the negative, but this shit cracks me up. There are a bunch of people right now on Earth who are claiming to be the reincarnation of Jesus Christ. I think it’s really funny, you know, we got one in Europe; we got one in Australia and it’s all wonderful and the whole Mary Magdalene thing, it’s just great, because when you reincarnate your obviously going to reincarnate as someone awesome (obvious note of playful sarcasm). Well, where are all the fucking Judas’s? How come nobody’s stepping forward and saying, “I am the reincarnation of Judas.” You don’t, right? Because that’s a bad dude, and you’re not going to be shouting out or anything because your fucking judgment is so off. That’s like you say you’re going to make a contract when you come back into life and all this contract has when is your death, what kind of disease, what kind of lessons you learn, duh, duh, duh. Why are we all looking at it as negatives? Let’s say you came in and you wanted to live a short life, right?
Me: Mm hm.
Erik: And then at age six you’re supposed to be checking out at age seven, but you say, “This is just fucking sweet! I’m going to stay.”
Great vocabulary for a six year old.
Erik: And you choose not to drown in the ocean that day. You get revived and live another fifty years. That’s the beauty. It doesn’t always have to the negative end. It could be a positive end, and yes, you have free will. You create your life. You can add to your recipe whatever you see fit, and most of the time you’re adding unconsciously.
Me: Ah!
Erik: Because we’re not taught to live a conscious life, which—
Jamie bursts out laughing.
Jamie: I’m sorry. He kind of did a very professional bow, like he stood up rolled his hand in front of his belly in a circle and bowed.
I giggle. I can just see him.”
Erik. (In a supercilious voice): Like my dear friend, Deepak Chopra, reaching people to live consciously. This is changing and shaping the contract that you created before you came in. You were in control before you came into this life, and you’re still in control when you’re living it. And guess the fuck what?
Jamie giggles.
Erik: You’re still in control after you leave it. What makes you think that because you wrote something down, you have to play that shit out to the same degree that you planned it before you even got into the damn shoes? You guys are gluttons for punishment, man!
Me: So we can do the improv thing, huh?
Erik: Yeah!
Me: Comedy improv. So what about the guy who was supposed to live to be a hundred? On a soul level, on a conscious level, he was like—
Erik: He’s just not taking care of his body!
Me: Oh, okay. All right. So, it’s all just free will.
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