In this part of the channeling session with Kim O’Neill, Erik discusses self-esteem issues and delivers messages for his sisters and brother. Let’s begin.

Me: What, other than past life issues, really affected your self-esteem, Erik? I mean, why? What happened to you?

Erik, shrugging: Just typical shit. Typical teenage shit.

Kim: Erik, could you be a bit more descriptive for your mom?

Me. chuckling: That was never a strong point of his.

Erik, shrugging again: Just typical teenage shit! You get together a thousand kids from 16 to 20, or even a million, and ask them from all over the world how’s their self-esteem and they’d say it’d depend on the time of day, if they smoked lately, and lots of other things.

Me: Did you take any pills on the day you died, Erik? Were you under the influence of any mind altering chemicals?

I spent 30 minutes or so with him just prior to his death and he seemed pretty stone-cold sober. Just solemn.

Erik: No, nothing.

Me: Did the medication the psychiatrist prescribe have anything to do with your suicide?

He was taking two medications for his bipolar disease, Lamictal and Abilify.

Erik: No, not at all. But that medication didn’t really help. That medication is going to be taken off the market, because of the negative impact it has on kids and teenagers.

Kim: Do you think if you hadn’t been on that medication, you would still have killed yourself?

Erik: Yes, I think I would have. The medication didn’t really influence my decision and it didn’t help me either. That’s why you got it for me, right Mom?

Me: Yeah. So Erik, did you understand how loved you were when you were here on the earthly plane?

Erik: I really never thought about shit like that. Kids don’t think about that shit.

Me, sadly: Yeah, I guess not.

Erik: Kids only notice when they’re not loved.

Me: Oh, wow, that’s true.

Kim: Erik is saying things that are so wise, Elisa. He’s evolved so much in the spiritual world.

Erik: Kids take things for granted when they’re loved. They only really notice when they feel like they’re not loved. So I guess I was pretty damn loved! (chuckling) Now I know, of course. And I knew when I was there, but I just really never thought about it. I just figured that was, you know, Mom and Dad stuff. Oh, and Mom, I like to call Kristina “Krissie” now, because I know that will irritate the dog shit out of her. It’s like a little brother being obnoxious. I love teasing her. I tell her, ‘Hey Krissie, hang in there cuz it’s gonna get easier. Love ya.’ And I’m really proud of Michelle as a mother. I tell her ‘I’m glad you got your fucking shit together.’ That’s my personal message for her. For Lukas, I wanna just tell him, ‘Everything’s cool, man. I know there’s a girl you like. Go for it, man!’ For Annika, I’d like to tell her, ‘I’m okay now and you should let go of your worries. That family is gonna be fine. I love you, Akka Baby.’

This was always his favorite nickname for his little sister!

Next, we begin the Ask Erik submissions. I have around 11 or 12 readers who have submitted questions to Erik about departed loved ones, the direction their lives are taking, and many other issues. I’m very proud of the wisdom Erik’s provided and the incredible amount of energy he has sacrificed in channeling this valuable information.

Today is Memorial Day, a day for honoring those soldiers who have fought to preserve our freedom and way of life. Today, Memorial Day is a time that I will also honor another type of soldier, one who has persevered in his own personal war, fighting dragons and demons within. He stayed as long as he could for us, the ones he loves so dearly.  I love you my sweet, brave soldier.