The next question for Erik comes from a dear friend and coworker of mine. She’s a very gentle spirit with a kind heart, so it was difficult to learn that she experienced a tragedy similar to mine. In August of 2009, her brother took his life the same way Erik did, by gunshot wound to the head. Every time I think about what she and her family had to go through, I feel her pain as if it were hers. I know exactly what she must have gone through and I understand just how tortured her path must be since her loss. Let’s see what Erik has to say. I’ve changed his name to initials in order to protect the family’s privacy.
Gina’s Question
Elisa,
As you already know my brother A. is often on my mind. I have been wanting to ask Erik a question for a while and finally have the courage to do so. I lost him last August to suicide. It came as a complete shock to myself as well as my whole family. He left behind a brother, wife, mother, 3 sisters, as well as many others who loved him. He also died a self inflicted gunshot wound to the head. I would just like to hear his thoughts and if he is with any of the family we’ve loved and lost before. A.T.A. 11/5/74. Thank you, love u.
Gina
Channeling Transcript
Me: Okay Erik, my next question comes from Gina, a very sweet girl who is the manager of one of the clinics I work in. In August,, her brother, A. committed suicide by gunshot wound just like Erik did.
Kim: Mm hm.
Me: His full name is A.T.A. He was born in 1974.
Kim: So he was thirty…
Me: Yeah, let’s see…thirty-six years old.
Kim: Okay. Alright. And did she give you any indication where they are?
Me: Dang-it! Well she lives here, if that helps. Maybe he lived around here too?
Kim: That’s okay.
Me: For future reference, what information do you and Erik need, exactly?
Kim: It would be groovy if you could provide the ages of the person who’s asking the question and the deceased and where they were when they passed…if they know. Even if they say, “I think they were somewhere in their twenties,” that’s okay.
Me: Oh, okay.
Kim: I don’t have to have it, but it would be nice. It would help me work faster.
Me: Okay.
Kim: Gina is her sister?
Me: Yes.
Kim: And what would she like to ask?
Me: She just wants his thoughts and whether he’s with family that they’ve loved and lost before.
Kim: Okay, let’s ask…
Erik: A’s here with me, Mom. He’s also very repentant that he did it. He did it, um, it was premeditated, he’s saying. So it wasn’t an accident.
Kim: A, why did you do it, if we may ask?
Erik: He’s shaking his head really hard, and he’s really upset with himself. He’s in a real different situation from Essie’s son, Charles, cuz he’s been to therapy here and is really working hard exploring why he did it, and he says he’ll never do it again. He’s going to be coming back as one of Gina’s children either in this lifetime or the next.
Kim: How old is Gina, would you guess?
Me: I have no idea. She’s one of those people who it’s hard to tell. She could be in her late twenties to mid-thirties, I guess.
Erik: He’s gonna come back as a boy, and she doesn’t need to worry cuz he’s never gonna do it again. He’s saying this right away, because he doesn’t want her to worry. He swears on his soul that he’ll never do it again. And he doesn’t want the same name. He wants a different name. Oh, and he says he loves Gina, and they’ve had many lifetimes together as siblings. He wants to thank her for all the support she gave him, and he says she’s the only one who could see him for who and what he really was in this lifetime. He’s saying she was the only one, and she was really supportive even when he was being an asshole.
Me: That sounds a lot like Gina.
Erik: Mom, A. was depressed, and he hid it from everyone, so his death was really shocking to the family. Gina has wondered, “Did I miss something. Did he say something that would have led me to know that he was contemplating this? How did I miss it? Why didn’t he tell me?”
Me: Yeah.
Erik: He’s telling me that he kept a lot of secrets. He was very secretive. He was closest to Gina out of anyone in his whole life, and he never breathed a word of it to her. There were a couple of times before then from the time he was 18 that he wanted to kill himself, but he didn’t. He stopped. He wanted to do it in a way so no one could resuscitate him.
Me: Okay.
Erik: Oh, and he says he tried to commit suicide once before, but he was brought back. It didn’t look like a suicide. He thought this time he needed to do it so no one could bring him back. At first he felt this huge unbelievable relief as soon as his soul popped out of his body. He says he felt no pain; it happened too fast. So when his soul left his body he felt this immediate relief, and he was so excited, and then he started feeling really regretful because of what was going to happen when he was found and because now the family would have to go on without him.
Me: Yeah, I know how that all feels.
Erik: Yeah, right. So then he suddenly remembered something that he had forgotten: what his destiny was, what he was supposed to do to help others, etc.
Me: So this was not his destiny, obviously.
Erik: Exactly.
Me: What was his destiny?
Erik: He was gonna live into his eighties. He was supposed to be there for Gina, to get even closer to her. They were supposed to be closer and closer over time. But he’ll be with her in the physical as her child next time he incarnates. If Gina has another child, it’ll be this lifetime. If not, it’ll be the next one. He’s come to her in dreams. He wants her to try to visualize his face right before she goes to sleep and talk to him. He’ll hear her and talk back. He’s been trying to give her messages, but she hasn’t been receptive yet.
It’s comforting to know that when we lose a loved one, it’s never forever. Eventually, we reunite, if not in the physical, in the spiritual. Since time really doesn’t exist in the afterlife, reunions may seem to occur in the blink of an eye. To us, however, it seems like an eternity, but an eternity well worth the wait.
