Yesterday my sister, Laura, was driving past the cemetery where my son is buried. She said her usual greetings of love and longing when suddenly, this song began to play on the radio. It reminded her of Erik. Surely it was a message from him. Perhaps he wants us all to know he’s home. Many…
Erik’s Visit to Brianna
We’ve been blessed to have such wonderful neighbors on our street while Erik and his brother and sisters were growing up. One of the families we’ve been the closest to live right across the street. Although Erik was older than all of them, he was very fond of the now 16 year old twins, Brandon…
Channeling Erik Through Psychic Medium, Felix Lee Lerma
A friend tipped me off to Felix Lee Lerma, a young psychic medium living in San Francisco who apparently is very well-regarded, conducting readings for a number of celebrities and other famous people. I had to wait four agonizingly long months for my appointment to finally arrive. I’ll break my hour long session into several…
Understanding Erik
Erik was often misunderstood by so many. He sometimes came across as intense and disheveled. He was tormented by tics and an addiction for cigarettes. But behind all that was a diamond in the rough. Few were kinder. Few were more loving. Few were as understanding. Few were as willing to sacrifice for others. Sometimes…
Love One, Death Zero
My next series of questions focus on Erik’s big sister, Kristina, who is currently finishing up her second year in medical school. She’s had little or no time to stop and catch her breath since his death, much less go through the full grieving process. His suicide came as such a violent shock to all…
Working with Energy
Since Erik’s death, one of my deepest desires has been to see him, to hold him, to hug him, to kiss him, to hear the sound of his voice and his wonderfully infectious laugh. As you can see from various entries, we’ve been blessed by numerous occasions when he’s been tangible through our senses of…
Punked Again!
Let me start by saying I have this thing about being organized. Very organized. I have lists for everything, even lists of my lists. This personality trait probably evolved because of my ADHD as a means of finding order in my own personal chaos. I don’t know if I could have survived medical school otherwise….
Erik and the Fortune Cookie
When I was a kid, fortune cookies were kick ass. (I was fairly easy to please.) Seriously, they pointed you in the right direction, gave clarity to a muddled path, and were just, well, fun! Now, it’s all about moral advice for morons: the early bird gets the worm, people in glass houses, yada, yada,…
Busy Guy, Big Projects
“Where would you like to begin this morning, Elisa?” Kim begins. ‘Well first of all I’d like to see if he’s around and if he is, I want to see how he’s doing and tell him I love him,’ I say. “Hi Mom!” He says that in a “Where else would I be” way, Kim…
From the Beginning
Many of you are new to the site, so I’d like to re-post entries from the beginning so that you won’t miss anything that might either interest you, endow you with a new understanding of all things spiritual, or help heal those who have also suffered a tragic loss. Let’s begin with the life and…
Erik on the Future and Time
In this part of the channeling session, Erik shares his views on how he and I will work together as a team to help others and the truth behind the concept of time. “Mom, do you have any idea how many people on the earthly plane need you to help them heal?” Okay, I’m thinking…
Ask Erik: Ruiz Family Questions
In this entry, you will see that grief is the great equalizer. I transcends ethnicity, religion, cultural background, socioeconomic levels, and in this case, even vast distances. Here is a question Irene posed to Erik from her homeland in the Philippines: “Dear Erik and Elisa: You guys are living in Texas while we are here…
Ask Erik: Jean’s Questions
The next question is from a bereaved mother very much like me. In fact, her son, Tyler, died only 9 days before Erik’s death and both were just 20 years old at the time of their passing. Here is the mother’s submission to Erik: “Erik, my son died 5 months ago. Do you meet strangers…