First, I would like to apologize to Bruce. I thought I had posted his part of the channeling session on August 31st, but it was still in the drafts folder. I had forgotten to click “publish.” Oops. The ol’ brain ain’t what she used to be!
Second, I’d like to say something about the Ask Erik button. I plan to put it back up as soon as I get close to the end of all of these transcripts. I have 3 more hour long sessions to transcribe. But when it does come up, I might have to place a monthly cap on the requests, because, at Erik’s insistence, I really need to start working on the book and there are just so many questions about the afterlife, the human experience, the universe, God, and other spiritual matters that need to be answered. If your needs are urgent, I’d highly recommend even a half hour session with Jeannie, Jamie, Felix or Kim. Otherwise, you know I’d do anything for you all. I’d also recommend, for those who haven’t done so, Kim’s free hour-long teleseminar on her home page. She gives so much wonderful information on how to channel your own guides and departed loved ones. It takes practice, but everyone, and I mean everyone, is quite capable of mastering this ability.
And now for Barbara’s questions (drum roll please):
Barbara’s Questions
There has been a great deal of loss in my life starting with a stillborn brother when I was 3. Death has continued to visit my family with all too frequent regularity. I have a sizable group on the other side. I speak to them frequently and think of them always. I am an artist and am trying to find the divine path for my art…money, emotional baggage, family, and severe health issues have been hurdles for me. Depression is an ongoing issue but for now seems to have abated. (I continue on medication) My first sister’s death (1982) is the one I struggle with the most due to a repeating dream I have of her. It always leaves me distressed in the days following. It gives me great hope to read Erik’s advice that we can all channel. I don’t have great success there though, I think I am fairly psychic so that increases my impatience. I ramble, forgive me. My point is that you and Erik are lights in the darkness of this plane. I have wrestled with incarnation here for my entire life and apparently didn’t decide to fully commit to earth until my near death experiences in 2007, at the age of 58. I now wish to follow my path in joy and am very comforted to read your blog. My prayers for you since I know the pain you feel is beyond comprehension. If there is ever time enough to ask Erik about my sister I would be eternally grateful. Barbara, age 61. . I am presently living in Melbourne, Florida. My sister’s first name is Jacquiee, she was 24 when she passed in September of 1982. She was in Oakhurst, New Jersey. My dream about her is always involved with family, all of whom have died also. This dream began before they all passed though and continues still now that they are gone. They all tell me that she really didn’t die but staged her death because she wanted to disappear and now has returned but refuses to see me. I am the only one in the family in this dream that she won’t see. She is in contact with all the rest of them. I always awake feeling devastated and missing her terribly. It is very vivid, and no, she never communicates with me which is the most painful thing about it. I try to not grieve, as I know that she is well and where she needs to be, but I feel like a part of me is missing. When she died it was if a hole was ripped open in my soul. She was 9 years younger than me but I always felt a deep connection with her that I have had with no one else on this earth. My other sister, who has also died from a drug overdose, was sweet and loving, but we never connected on the same level which broke her heart. I couldn’t change that, our age difference was huge and I had to mother her for so long. Please ask Jacquiee if she is with the family. What can I do to alleviate this feeling of despair where she is concerned? Was her passing quick and painless? Was it her time? Was she there to meet Dad, Mom and Tracy? How can she and I reach my brother? Her death was hard on all of us, my children adored her and still remember her with much love to this day. I feel all of them but her around me and I think this may be tied to my feelings of grief.
I can’t seem to shake the feeling that I am taking up someone’s valuable chance for comfort and guidance. Forgive me please, it’s a thing I’m working on this lifetime. I also can’t shake the feeling that I am supposed to correspond with you and Erik. That’s me, a woman of indecision. A short list? Here goes:
1. Why can’t I find Jacquiee? Why the recurring dream? (Jacquiee, died 1982, Oakhurst, NJ, 24 years old)
2. Why is her passing so difficult for me to carry?
3. Is Tracy with her or has Jacquiee returned to the earthly plane? (Tracy is our other sister, she died in Pueblo, CO in 2003, she was 39 years of age)
4. Am I wasting time, or am I moving in the right direction for my life to have a positive impact on this world? (this I am sure is tied into my depression issues and my lack of extroverted drive)
A bit of info, my brother, Ernest, is still alive. He is my only remaining sibling and we two are the only remnants of our nuclear family. He has become estranged and I don’t know how to reach him. Jacquiee and he were close, but he doesn’t really believe in any afterlife and has become very distant over the years. I worry about it, but don’t know how to change it. You needn’t ask about that.
Channeling Transcript
Me: Okay, I’m going to try to get one more in here, Erik. Are you fine with that?
Erik: Uh huh.
Me: This is from Barbara who’s 61 living in Melbourne, Florida. She’s suffered a lot of loss in her life, beginning with a stillborn brother. Her sister, Jacquiee, died at the age of 24 in Oakhurst, New Jersey. She’s had a hard time with this particular loss.
Erik: Yes, because Barbara has been Jacquiee’s mother in a lot of past lifetimes, so losing her was like losing her child.
Me: Okay.
Erik: And that’s why this haunts her. Oh, but Jacquiee’s been visiting her ever since, Mom. Look, she doesn’t spend 24/7 with her, but she visits all the time, very, very frequently. Now, there are two reasons for this. First, they’re platonic soulmates. Barbara has been her mom in a number of lifetimes, and whenever we have children there’s a feeling for them that is unlike any feeling you could have for someone else.
Me: Oh, sure! I completely understand that, Erik! Why can’t she find Jacquiee?
Erik (chuckling): Barbara is so funny; she’s like this person walking around the house saying, “Where are my glasses? Where are my glasses?” and she’s holding them in her hand, or they’re on top of her head!
(Kim and I both laugh.)
Erik: Um, Jacquiee spends time around Barbara; Barbara talks to her; Jacquiee communicates with Barbara both telepathically and in dreams.
Me: Okay.
Erik: Barbara needs to sit down, clear the decks, in other words, give Jacquiee her full attention and start talking to her without thinking, “I can’t do this; this isn’t happening, she can’t talk to me,” etc. She needs to turn off her brain by saying, “Brain shut down” and just listen to the dialog that’s popping into her head. They’re already talking a blue streak! Barbara misses her so, so much, Mom, cuz it’s like she’s lost a child.
Me: Oh, yeah! Sure! (how well I understand this) Now, let’s see…was it her destiny and was her death quick and painless?
Erik: Was it her destiny? Yes; was it quick and painless? No. It was very painful.
Me (dismayed at the prospects of relaying this information): Okay.
Erik: It was short, though. It was short. There was searing pain, but Jacquiee says it was something she was supposed to experience, and it was short-lived. Quickly after that she found herself—the soul popped out of the body, and so, uh, uh, it was a necessary part of her soul’s experience.
Me: Sure. Is she with any other family members? She had another sister who died of suicide. Her name is Tracy—
Erik: Tracy has already been reborn on the earthly plane.
Me: Oh, okay.
Erik: Jacquiee either spends time with Barbara or, she’s made a whole lot of friends over here. You know, when you get back over here, you have a whole lot of friends from all of your past lifetimes.
Me: Oh yeah, sure.
Erik: You know, the friends that are not back on the earthly plane. So she says she is with friends and family, but none that Barbara would know there in that lifetime. She’s got a wide circle of friends and family. She’s not alone. She’s happy and fulfilled, but she’s be even happier if Barbara and her could talk back and forth, back and forth. Barbara is already doing this, but she’s not trusting herself.
Me: Exactly. Now, was she there to meet her dad and her mom and Tracy?
Erik: She was there when her mom and dad crossed over and when Tracy died, but she was more toward the back. She sort of waved and then she was gone. Jacquiee is not as close to those three on a soul level as she is with Barbara. So when Barbara gets over here, Jacquiee will be there front and center! She’ll be the main one to greet her and hug her and stuff. So Jacquiee is not as close to her mom and dad and Tracy so she wanted to make an appearance, show that she was there, welcome them back, but then there isn’t much more connection after that.
Me: Okay. Now she has a living brother, Ernest. He’s her only remaining sibling. He’s become estranged, and Barbara is not sure how to reach him. Jacquiee and he were very close, but he doesn’t really believe in an afterlife and has become very distant over the years. She worries about it but doesn’t know how to change it.
Kim: Okay, she can’t. Ernest is deciding to, instead of opening himself up to new and different philosophies and perspective, he’s closing off. He’s going to become more negative, pessimistic and closed. Barbara is going to think it’s impossible, impossible—few things on the earthly plane are impossible, but this is one of them—to carry on a relationship with him.
Me: Oh, boy!
Kim: He’s also going to seem a little on the cranky side, and there is no way Barbara can change this. There’s no way she can prompt him, encourage him, support him. He will NOT, NOT want any sort of suggestions or advice in that regard. Ernest likes to interact with her on his own terms only. So, Barbara will think, “Well, it I don’t contact him, he won’t contact me.” A little bit of family goes a long way, and it’s true it’s only the two of them, but Ernest is not a real family oriented kind of guy. Erik and Barbara’s guardian angels all recommend that she just leave Ernest alone, and when he contacts her, he contacts her. She’s unlikely to know when he even passes. It’s his choice, his preference.
Me: Well, I guess we’re out of time. Thanks you so much, again, Kim, and Erik, thank you, Sweetie Pie. I love you so, so very much.
Erik: I love you Mom, I love you Mom!
Kim: He’s showing himself giving you a great big hug, Elisa.
Erik: I’m trying to make you and Pappa proud.
Mom: Aw, Sweetie, you don’t have to do that! I’ve always been proud of you. You need to do this for yourself. You need to just make yourself proud. That’s the important thing.
Erik: I know, but it’s important to me to carry my end of the apple cart in the work you and me are doing together, Mom.
Me: Oh, gosh, Erik, you’re doing the lion’s share here!
Erik (laughing loudly): Yeah, I agree with that!
Kim laughs loudly and says: Mom’s working very hard, and oh, Erik’s giving me a look like “Kiiimmmm, I know!” He’s laughing. And Erik, golly you sure are handsome! He’s showing himself to me, and his face just got crimson!
Me: Aw! You are! You’re a beautiful boy, inside and out!
Kim: Red as a beet! Gorgeous!
Barbara’s Response
Dear Elisa,
You have no idea how amazing this message is. I have been trying so hard to put this to the back of my mind but I have been selfishly allowing myself to think that I would hear today. It is actually my birthday and to get this today is the most amazing gift I have ever received. I cannot even put into words the absolute joy and relief that envelopes me this moment. Erik, you are incredible and so very selfless. You are both such a gift to this troubled world. I will continue to keep you both in my prayers that the energy will continue to flow through you both and that you will be surrounded by peace and protection always.
I cannot wait to read the full transcript, but again, I can be patient. I do honor the amount of work you have taken on. To know that she has been here the whole time is so beautiful and yet so agonizing to me that I have been so dense! Ah, the lessons go on, and on. It makes so much sense to hear that she wasn’t that close to my parents or other sister. Wow. Thanks also for the release of guilt over my brother. Knowing this I can just let him be who he is now and not feel I have to fix it.
My deepest love to you both,
Barbara
Handsome Boy
