Before I start sharing the transcription of this part of the last channeling session, I’d like to thank all of you for the amazing love you’ve given Erik and I. I feel this is the reason for the end of my recent dry spell in his visitations. The dreams, the physical presences, it’s all you…
Erik on God
The belief that there is some Supreme Being seems to transcend all religions. A while back, I asked Erik if he had met God, and he said that as soon as he transitioned to the afterlife, he kept a low profile. He wanted to remain under the radar because he was scared that God would…
Channeling Erik Through Psychic Medium, Felix Lee Lerma
A friend tipped me off to Felix Lee Lerma, a young psychic medium living in San Francisco who apparently is very well-regarded, conducting readings for a number of celebrities and other famous people. I had to wait four agonizingly long months for my appointment to finally arrive. I’ll break my hour long session into several…
Life’s Work in Heaven
After these many months of having inside information about the afterlife, I’ve discovered how oddly similar Heaven is to the earthly plane. Aside from the fact that you have no body and have greater abilities to manifest what you want immediately, so may aspects seem the same. Discarnate souls can have homes, material possessions, and…
The Nature of Souls and Thought
My next few questions for Erik mirrored my penchant for understanding the underpinnings of life and reality. Consider me like a devout car enthusiast who spends hours under the hood of a ’57 Mustang marveling at its cylinder arrangement. Whatever, I don’t know enough about auto mechanics to put together a believable sentence here, but…
Working with Energy
Since Erik’s death, one of my deepest desires has been to see him, to hold him, to hug him, to kiss him, to hear the sound of his voice and his wonderfully infectious laugh. As you can see from various entries, we’ve been blessed by numerous occasions when he’s been tangible through our senses of…
Ask Erik: Ruiz Family Questions
In this entry, you will see that grief is the great equalizer. I transcends ethnicity, religion, cultural background, socioeconomic levels, and in this case, even vast distances. Here is a question Irene posed to Erik from her homeland in the Philippines: “Dear Erik and Elisa: You guys are living in Texas while we are here…
Is This Woman Crazy?
I know that there are some who read my blog and think ‘Grief has tossed this lady into the deep end.’ I’d like to address that now for several reasons, none of which have anything to do with my ego, reputation or self-esteem. Even before Erik died, I’ve been curious about spiritual matters. Deep inside,…
Channeling Session with Erik, Part Two
To continue where we left off in the most recent channeling session with Erik through psychic medium, Kim O’Neill, I pose questions meant to provide details of the abilities and characteristics of souls in the afterlife. I ask, ‘Erik, do you have your five senses? Can you taste and smell and touch and so on?’…
Channeling Session with Erik, Part One
I’ve been so excited lately about the progress I’ve made with my own channeling experiences. I feel like it’s all a matter of tuning in to the right frequency and holding it there, much like you would when you turn the dial on an analog radio to find your favorite radio station. The difference is…
Life in Heaven
It’s been a while since I channeled Erik through psychic medium, Kim O’Neill, so I had collected several questions over that period of time. Naturally, I missed him deeply, so my first words were: ‘Erik, hi Sweetie, I love you.’ Kim giggles and mimics Erik as though he’s rolling his eyes at my sappiness, which…
First Physical Visits
For months now, I’ve longed for a more tangible presence from Erik. Nothing quite measures up to the intensity of a mother’s longing to hold her child in her arms, to kiss his cheek, to caress his face. Through our psychic medium, Kim O’Neill, Erik had mentioned that he has been practicing manipulating his energy…
Small Miracles
Losing a child, particularly to suicide, is gut wrenching. It lends an entirely new perspective on the term, “a broken heart,” because every morning when I wake up and realize that ‘yes, Erik is still dead; it wasn’t all some horrible dream,’ I feel like a dagger has been plunged to the hilt into my…
A Visit to Big Sister
So many people, including family members and friends, have reported visitations from Erik that are vivid, tangible and accompanied by a certainty that his presence is real. Here’s an email his big sister, Kristina, sent me recently: “Erik came to me yesterday just as I was falling asleep. My eyes were half-closed so you know…
The Candle
My eldest daughter, Kristina, shared an interesting experience with me that occurred a few weeks after Erik died. She was up late studying, as medical students are notoriously known to do. As part of her ritual, she lit a candle in honor of Erik and placed it on her desk by her study materials. WIthout…